I just got the news that we are launching from Ft Lauderdale Florida on January 10th. If you know me well, what was missing from that sentence? Where's my typical overuse of exclamation points you say?
Our whole squad found out our launch date and location today and within minutes it was all over facebook, I got tons of texts, everyone is so excited. Still noticing the lack of enthusiasm? Instead of jumping for joy and spinning around the room I started to cry!I felt, feel? so scared and lonely and off…concerned and tired and did i mention scared? I immediately started looking for something to numb me, should I have a drink? Watch a movie? Crawl into bed and lock my door?
Instead, God took care of me, without me even asking. I signed onto facebook to look for the logistics, and another world racer was online. After I revealed how freaked out and unsettled I was feeling, they called me immediately and whoo boy, whipped me into shape, in the most loving way, they told me to cut it out, God makes no mistakes, I am one baddass of a woman and others see that in me, so look for what God thinks of me.
I was reminded that God lives in me, in ME, even when I'm feeling useless and cranky and demanding. He sees a lovely women, his baby girl, the one he came down to love on a die for. My Father loves me and man o man alive did he ever sacrifice on my behalf. And we all get to live with that level of love for the rest of our lives and into eternity! Thank you amigo for reminding me to look to HIM for comfort, to Him for strength and to Him for meaning and purpose. I have a PURPOSE, MY LIFE HAS MEANING! MY GOD ADORES ME!!!
And I adore you. Send me some lovin, I could totally use it right now.
