The past week has been incredible and more God filled than I could ever imagine. From Monday to Friday all squads that are out on The World Race got together for an event called the Awakening. We were led in worship by Jonathan David Helser and his lovely wife Melissa. God is using them in a big way. Three times a day we had sessions from a few different speakers. Through the worship, speakers and my squadmates God has been confirming things that He has been trying to show me and teach me in the last little while.
One of the main things that was talked about this week was fear. Fear had begun to have a strong grip on my life. I was fearful of being uncomfortable, of trying new things, of saying yes to everything God has for me. God has been revealing many places where I let fear grow in my life. Thank the Lord He has been freeing me of it! I have realized how much of a hold satan had on my life without me even realizing it. God has not given us a spirit of fear! The only thing satan has to use against us is words. Yes they are powerful but God’s words have even more power. It is crazy to me that the God who created us is saying so many wonderful things to us, He has so much greatness for us and yet we choose to listen to satans lies. Satan has no power over us! God has equipped us to stand against Him. All we have to do is recognize the power that God has and open up our hearts so that we can be God’s vessels. God has given us a voice and Satan knows how much power ith olds and he’s the one who is scared to death that we might realize it and stand up for ourselves! He is doing everything he can to keep that from happening. There is absolutely no reason why we should listen to the crap that satan feeds us, and quite honestly, I’m sick of it. I am ready to take a stand.
I truly feel as if my soul has been awakened this week and it’s is so wonderful! God has filled me with so much joy and freedom. I haven’t been this happy in a long time.
I have a story that I want to share with you. Last week when we were still at the hostel I got an email on facebook from one of my friends on the squad. She told me that one day she was praying and God gave her a vision. She saw me laying down on the ground sleeping or something. Then she saw God’s love come down and wrap around me. His love was so strong it picked me up. It awakened me. When I first read it I thought wow that’s really cool but I don’t really know what it means for me. As I continued thinking about it during the week I started waiting and wondering.. when God is it gonna happen? Ironic, or God orchastrated that it happened during the awakening. How appropriate!
God has completely changed my heart around. That’s the only way I can explain what has taken place. He has been teaching me to trust Him even more when I’m uncomfortable, somethings unfamiliar or I’m fearful. He is romancing me and I’m falling deeper and more in love with Him than ever before. My time has come. I’m ready for even greatness that God has been waiting to fill me with.
