“I’ve seen ‘I Am’ and now I know who I am…”

The other night I found myself sitting at home with my lovely Dawn watching a couple of great Disney movies. We watched Beauty and the Beast and of course, The Little Mermaid which just happens to be one of my favorite movies of all time. Maybe I am getting too philisophical here on the World Race but I saw many similarities to World Racers in each of the women of the movies.

In Beauty and the Beast, Belle begins the whole movie by singing about how she wants more out of her life than these “provincial things” that surround her. Everyone is constantly commenting on how weird she is and somewhat of an odd person. Which is funny considering I know quite a few people who thought I had lost it after I told them I was selling everything I owned to backpack around the world and talking about Jesus for a whole year of my life. But the thing is, I had that same feeling that Belle did. That feeling like there has to be more to my life than what I was currently doing.

In the story of The Little Mermaid, Ariel is craving for something more. She is not content where she is in her life and she is restless. I have always been a restless person and in some ways I think that the term has a negative connotation. Like being restless is a bad thing and it is important to be content where you are. I can respect that idea, I can, however I think that maybe it can be a good things sometimes. That restless feeling in Ariel’s life pushed her forward, to strive for something more. All World Racers will admit that they have felt that urge for more in their lives, or else they would not be on this race to begin with.

 

The fact is, our home is in Heaven and we are just living here on Earth for the time being. God wants to have our whole hearts. He already knows every hair on our head and everything we think, but how well do we know God? Maybe that restless feeling is healthy in a relationship with God. That we never grow to be content in our knowledge of Him, and continually strive to connect with God on a deeper level. I do not take the comment “restless” offensively anymore. In fact, I consider it a compliment now. God wants us to yearn for Him and to go to Him for everything. I never want that hunger for more of God to go away. I never want to be quenched of God.

 

A big part of this World Race for me has been a chance and opportunity for me to truly find myself and who I really am. In my thought process that person had to be very different than who I am right now. But the more I throw myself into the Holy Word and into the service of others, the more I am finding that I am just a daughter in Christ. I am still the same person that I always was, I am just becoming a better person by giving up myself to let in more God. There is a great line in a song that states “I’ve seen ‘I Am’ and now I know who I am…” which has truly been a saving grace to me in this month. By knowing more about God and who He is, I have seen who I really am because Christ is in me.