Your Love NEVER Fails

These past few weeks have been nothing short of insane. I have been so busy catching up with friends, dealing with fundraisers, emailing and making phone calls like a mad man, preparing gear and all that jazz, getting vaccinations, and then trying to carry on a normal life. Which has been difficult. My sleep schedule has been totally wacko and eating right? umm, well, I try! ha. Let’s just say if this is any indication as to what the race will be like…absolute craziness of course…then I am really prepared! Prepared for what exactly? Prepared for the unpreparable. Prepared for craziness and insanity and knowing that through it all, God is there and will somehow provide and take care of me. Through everything.

 

I find it funny when people use the phrase “My God is so faithful”. It makes me kinda cock my head to the side like a little puppy dog. What do you mean God is faithful? Of course He is! Its not like he came through in the nick of time just for you… YOU’RE the one who lost your faithfulness and didn’t trust God enough for him to come through. He always comes through and He is always there.

 

Needless to say, I have slightly waivered in my faith. For some reason, I thought that ever since I decided to go on this trip, ya know, “following the call” and all, that things would just be perfect again. Don’t ask me why I thought that. I know that it sounds really silly when I say it out. But doesn’t everyone think that in a way? That if we decide to do the right thing and do what God really wants us to, then everything will be easy? Well, have to burst the bubble…but that is SO wrong! Wow, I mean, REALLY WRONG!! Being a Christian in general isn’t easy. Jesus life was never easy. Just because you follow Him doesn’t mean that bad things won’t happen, it just means that we have an extra cushy crash landing pad. Like, a really nice harness to catch us all the time.

 

I did what I was told. I decided to go on this crazy trip. Leaving everything I know behind to follow Christ and what He wants for my life. No, it does not make any sense to me at all. No, it doesn’t always sound rational. Yes, I am utterly terrified. No, I do not know what to expect, nor do I have any idea what I am going to do when I get home. So to wrap this portion of the blog up, I know nothing. :] But its okay, because I have my harness and my landing pad.

 

I absolutely HATE asking for money. I really do hate it. So support raising for me is not so much fun. But whe I look at it as God is providing for thousands of other needy people in the world through me? Well, that is pretty cool. So, its not like people are supporting me personally, they are supporting the great cause of furthering God’s Kingdom! So, even though I am unfaithful and freaking out about money, I need to remain faithful to God because He is always there for me.