i woke up this morning and as i perused the world race website they started popping up all over the place. “happy mother’s day, mom.” and i found myself in a conundrum.
i love my mom.
but in recent years we’ve struggled. through mistakes, misunderstandings and judgments we’ve had a hard time finding common ground. at one point, not so long ago, i didn’t even know if i wanted my mom at my college graduation. and so i woke up this morning in a predicament. i wanted so badly to write a blog about my mom on mother’s day but given our recent history i didn’t know if i was up for the challenge.
and then i talked to her tonight.
me and mom at graduation last may
and i was reminded that she is not the same person she was ten months ago. over the last ten months my mom and i have been on similar journey’s of redemption and sanctification. we started our treks on the same day, we’re both living in intense communities under Godly authority. we are both learning about our identity in Christ and who He has created us to be. and everything the enemy intended for evil is being transformed and the lord is making it good. God is giving back to me the mother the enemy tried to take away. she was trapped in bondage but she is oh, so free today. today she is walking as the woman God created her to be in righteousness, freedom, redemption and love.
it’s been difficult to only be apart of her transformation from such a distance with short phone calls and occasional updates through my grandma. but i am so excited to go home and rekindle a relationship that at one point seemed all but lost. the lord is such a redeemer.
mom,
i love you so much. i am so proud of the woman of God you are becoming and walking as. thank you for always loving me. i have never doubted for one minute how much you care. i know you would give me the world if you could. thank you for always, always fighting for me. you only ever wanted good things for me and you have fought to the death for that. you’ve literally been to hell and back for my benefit, usually neglecting yourself in the process. thank you for protecting me and believing in me. you’ve always been my biggest fan. i see jesus in you. i see love in you. i see the way you are being redeemed. i can hear it in your voice. i love how you are looking for life these days. the joy and freedom you’ve found will reach nations and change lives. your story will bring healing to many and your touch will bring comfort to those around you. you are restored, redeemed, free, beloved, amazing, and beautiful. my prayer is that jesus would continue to align our hearts and our lives as we continue the journey of advancing his kingdom together.
hugs and rainbows,
ashley
