I’d be almost embarrassed if you guys could see how many times I’ve Googled that question. (Yea, sometimes I resort to Googling life questions.) On days when the gap between the expected deadline amount and what is actually in my account feels like a great chasm… I Google. It’s also on those days that I doubt The Lord’s faithfulness, His desire to provide, and sometimes even His love for me.
But God’s answer to my doubt has not been to sweep in and take away the situation causing the doubt. It’s actually been to allow it to continue. He’s allowed me to wrestle. He’s allowed me to get frustrated. He’s allowed me to question and question and question.
And through it, I’m learning a new kind of faith.
I’m learning that this was always Plan A. God is not surprised, worried, or even anxious. He is sanctifying me. He is inviting me to learn to trust Him deeper and deeper. The Lord is teaching me to keep my eyes focused on Him, not my situations. He is my Rock, my Shelter, my Comfort, and my Safe Place.
I’m not sure I would be learning all of these things if it weren’t for experiencing such a hard time with fundraising. And, in the end, it’s not about the money. The Lord will use whatever He wants to get glory, to sanctify me. And if this is the crucible He chose, then praise Him for it!
So, what has happened because I haven’t met my fundraising deadline yet?
As Charles Spurgeon would say, I have learned to kiss the wave that throws me against the Rock of Ages.
With all of this said, my fundraising need is still very real. I know without a shadow of a doubt that The Lord has called me to The World Race. I know He has called me to be His hands and feet. But, I can’t go without you.
I am still about $3,100 short of my next deadline.
This money pays for my air, land, and sea transportation, covers a $4-a-day food ration, helps to provide my team and I with shelter, and pays for my overseas medical insurance for the next year. Financially supporting me on The World Race allows me to hold a beautiful orphaned child, to pray for the sick, to bring hope to prostitutes in red light districts. It allows me to tell someone that The Lord DOES love them, that He DOES care for them… and then show them that it’s true.
I am asking for a miracle. Please consider supporting me financially on The World Race. Any amount helps, but I can’t go without your help. If you would like to support me through a tax-deductible donation, just click the “Support Me” link! 🙂
