30 days to my deadline
51 days to launch
I’ve raised $4156
I still need to raise $5844
Together that will make $10,000
What does it mean for me to reach my goal?
It means I get to launch on January 8th with my squad (E squad 4THgeneration)
We will fly out 3 days later to south Africa, then split off into our teams. From there my team and I (warriors of peace) will go to our assigned places. Our first place is working with new believers, and working with our hosts to help the people there. They work on giving people life skills to start their own businesses and provide for their families.
I’m very excited to get there and to see everyone again !
And then there’s the other part of me , the part of me that is dreading the day I say goodbye to my niece for the last time and kiss my mom and dad goodbye for a year . At training camp I realized how much I truly love their hugs. It will be a huge adjustment to be away from them .
But I know it will be such an incredible journey, it will be hard , amazing and so worth it .
Every day I think about the race , some days I think about how much I’m going to miss the little luxuries , other days I think about how much I need to fundraiser , and then there are the days where I cant stop thinking about and talking about the fact that I get to be with my team soon and I get to trust God in a whole new way .
This whole process has been trusting God if we are being honest. when I first applied finances was my biggest worry , I couldn’t fathom how I could raise that much money , but I was determined not to put a limit on God so I applied . Then a month later I found out I would be losing a lot of hours at work . I wanted to be upset but I was at peace about it , I was happy to have time to fundraise , work , sleep and see family and friends .
That day I got home, not sure what to tell my parents and on the counter was a cheque I had applied for for finishing school. it showed up! It showed up on the day my mind was racing and I wasn’t sure were to go from there . I knew it was God saying trust me , I’ve got it . so I did I trusted him when nothing made sense , and I’m still trusting him when nothing makes sense .
I look at the money that I need and want to vomit , my brain says I’m crazy and will never make it to launch , but my heart says so much more . my heart says trust him , he’s got it . my heart says let go of control for once and see what happens . my heart is at peace . while everything around me is crazy my heart is calm .
It’s all new for me , its new having to ask people for help , its new having to admit that I need help . and its new having to trust God even when its hard and I’m being impatient . This isn’t something I have much experience with and I’m learning . I’m learning that every time I give up a little control crazy stuff happens !
Sometimes it’s a message I receive or it’s a donation in my account , all I know is every time I’m floored at how creative he is and how much he cares .
I can say one thing for certain, he’s in control of all of this madness . and shows me every day how worthy he is of my trust .
A verse that struck me to my core the other day is Matthew 6:24 “ no one can serve two masters , either he will hate the one and love the other , or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other . you cannot serve both God and money.”
It showed me how much finances have been a priority and not in the right way. so I’m trying to give up the constant thoughts and when they come , looking to God instead of the problem.
so that’s were i’m at with things , nothing is perfect but things are happening, great amazing things are happening.
My prayers for all of this craziness
God I come to you for help , I come asking you to take any control that I am fighting for away from me . I’m asking that you continue to show me all that you have in store and how much you really do have me in the palm of your hand . Even when things around me are crazy and not going as planned continue to give me a peace that you are in control .
God I pray that the finances come when you plan on them coming . I pray that you move in people’s hearts and that people see the vision you have for this God ,that they see the vision you’ve given me for this . this trip is so much more than a trip, it’s a kingdom journey, God I pray that you continue to show us all that souls are on the line and just how valuable it really is for us to go to other countries to speak you loving word . we are your hands and feet over here and out there , God show us where you want us !
amen
