I am sorry that it has been so long since I last updated, to those who follow my blog and look for updates, I am sorry I have not kept you informed and updated on what the Lord has been doing the past few weeks. (Gosh, I really need to stop writing these blogs with the first line being an apology) There really is no excuse, but ergo, my excuse: Life has come at me faster than I know how to handle it.
How do I manage being a student, taking classes and all of my homework and assignments that come with, Be a daughter, a sister, and a grand daughter to my family whom I love, being consistent in my walk with Christ. Be a roommate to two amazing young ladies, while trying to be intentional in my relationships with friends before leaving. While trying to raise support, preparing for the world race… I am having a really, really difficult time just living in the present moment, so to try and get things ready for two and half months from now when I leave for a year, it just becomes a bit overwhelming. I don’t want to miss out on what God is doing in the here and now because I am so caught up in the then and when of next year.
The last month specifically has been a whirlwind of events and things that have taken place in life that have left me feeling at times like I am spiraling out of control, like my heart has been ripped apart and broken, and being left with a weight of a heaviness of burden to carry. As I don’t have time to explain nor feel it the time or the place to share in great detail all that has taken place, I want to share with you some of what the Lord has been teaching me. I am learning that I am not a superwoman, I cannot carry the weight of life on my own shoulders, I cannot be dependent and sufficient on my own power, yet so many times I try to cope with things on my own. So what am I learning, I am powerless without Christ, I am insufficient apart from Christ, for He and He alone is sufficient. I am not created to carry burdens on my own; but rather I am to share my load with Christ, for he truly will lighten it…
What does this look like, it looks like learning how to cast my burdens and anxiety on Jesus, because he truly does care for me (1 Peter 5:7). Learning to turn first to God, learning to cling to him and not the other comforts I find in this world, “From the end of the earth will I cry unto you (God), when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I” (Psalm 61:2).
As I write you this blog I am sitting in my Aunt Barbi and Uncle Jacks beautiful home in Athens, Georgia. They have been so gracious to allow myself and a friend of mine Cayla to stay with them for a few days. Training camp for The World Race starts tomorrow evening. I will be at training camp through October 20th, so be sure to be looking for new updates! I promise there will be some! Though I have very mixed emotions about what is to take place this next week, I would be lying if I told you I wasn’t excited. I feel like a little kid the night before Christmas. I am excited to learn and to train and to grow and hear more about what is to take place next year. You can expect an update or several for that matter.
Would you pray for me as I am in training camp, pray for unity of our team as many of us meet for the first time. Would you pray for the Holy Spirit to pour out his spirit on us? Would you pray specifically for me, as I am facing this week ahead of me, knowing that state and condition of my own heart is already so broken, and realizing that I am about to become even more wrecked for the purpose of the Gospel. Thank you so much for all of your support, encouragement and prayers thus far. I am blown away at Gods provision and sovereignty in my life and completely humbled by the gracious generosity I have experienced from family and friends like you.
