Everything inside of me wants Jesus. I want to swim in the dreams of His heart. I want to get lost in His love. I want to be swept up by His power. I want to dance with His tenderness and I want to encounter His passion. Long ago, I layed my life down for Him and I am convinced that I was made to keep laying it down.
I remember a couple years ago the Lord spoke to my heart and said, "If you feel like an orphan, just lay down, and you will awake as a daughter." Our culture promotes orphan thinking. Day in and day out, we are told lies by our culture, by the media, by educational institutions, by popular thinking that tries to get us to believe that we are not loved, we are unwanted and something is always wrong with us. One moment in His presence tells me otherwise. It tells me I belong with Him.
If I can just get to the place of laying with Him, I am reminded that my heartbeat started with His heartbeat and that my breath started with His breath.
As I have been thinking and praying lately for the World Race, the one thing that burns on my heart: I want to be with Him where He is and I want to pour my life out for the least of these. Sometimes I think that sounds romantic and sometimes it sounds nicer than it really can at times feel in the moment.
But what would it look like if I started to get hungry, like really hungry for His nearness? What if I started to get a deep hunger for heaven coming into earth because that's what Jesus does and it is what His very presence burns to do? What if I threw all my selfish ambition and all my needs and all my comfort and all my security to abandon and with all of my heart said, I don't care about the cost – I am ready to see Him come.
This is the true song of my heart.
I am so reminded that the Lord has given me a story and I believe even now the Lord is breaking through in my life on so many fronts. I know what it feels like to be broken, shaken and violated. But I also know what it feels like to be restored, healed and found. This is why I am passionate about the power of the Gospel. It is GOOD NEWS.
Because when suddenly you thought there was no hope and that darkness was your inheritance, out comes a Man who says "I know all you have ever done. I know all that has ever been done to you. I have never stopped loving you." Suddenly, you see people walking out from the corners of abuse, oppression and hatred. They are throwing their chains of addictions, suicide and sin to the ground. They are coming under this idea that someone SEES them, someone LOVES them, someone is NOT AFRAID of their pain.
It makes the Gospel not just a story. But a powerful exchange.
If I can touch one life with this, Papa, I say yes.
If I can touch crowds with this, Papa, I am Yours.
If I can touch nations with this, Papa, do whatever it takes.
