“I need to get over myself”
God has been challenging and showing me lately how much I think THINGS matter.
they don’t.
I guess I am thinking about it a lot because I’m about to spend a year- living out of a 60 liter backpack! ME. A girl that takes a suitcase and a duffle bag for a weekend trip. ME. I pack a suitcase for an overnight stay. ME. One whose purse could contain a Goodwill Thrift Store. Not to mention said year is going to be in other countries. Different Culture Different Weather Different Food
It’s not even like a “spiritual” thing. I suppose it is mostly stuff in light of the upcoming trip. Just everyday normal things that I need to stop caring/worrying about:
Comforts.
Where I sleep. For example- I like my bed. I mean, I REALLY like my bed. I can honestly say I love my bed. When faced with sleeping on the floor, couch, or even an air mattress- I have a little inward “pity party”. What’s the matter? I’m gonna be sleeping on a sleeping pad soon, in who knows what locations- what’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
The temperature around me. For example- my car. Even my house. Well anywhere really. I can’t stand being hot. I dislike it. I honestly get frustrated easily when I am hot. What’s the matter? I am used to being able to just turn the air up. I’m not always going to have a thermostat to use and mess with temperature- what’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
Preferences.
Things I eat. For example- I am kind of a picky eater. I have likes and dislikes. There is food that I don’t like because I don’t like the texture of it, there is food I don’t like because of the color of it, there is food I don’t like because of its taste and there is even food that I am prejudice against and don’t like it! What’s the matter? I am not going to be able to pick and choose what I eat all the time- what’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
My pace of life. This one is kinda a big deal… There’s the fast-paced stuff:
- Driving from point A to point B- STOPLIGHTS are such a BIG deal
- Phone calls- being put on hold is such an inconvenience
- Internet connections- those little pinwheel “loading” symbols? So annoyingAnd you don’t even want me to get STARTED on those lines in Walmart!!
*Walmart aside, all this stuff takes what? Two minutes, MAX? What’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
Looks.
This one is a little deeper, I guess, just because I’m going to categorize it outside and inside.
Outside. For example- make up. I feel like I ALWAYS need to be wearing make up. Or at least have some that I could wear. It’s like a “security blanket”. What’s the matter? I’m not going to be having make up at my disposal- remember: limited space in the pack… :))- what’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
Inside. Okay, so this is the one that is taking it a little deeper. When I say inside- I’m talking about the insecurities of not looking good enough. THIS, I know, is EVERYone. You know- my legs are fat, my teeth should be whiter, or I wish my skin was clearer. These thoughts are not from God. God created us. You think that God created something not beautiful? I think God created something not beautiful? What’s the matter? Thinking like this is distraction/discouragement. What’s the big deal? I need to get over myself.
Now, I’m not really sure that this blog makes as much sense to you as it does to me. :)) I don’t necessarily have a great way with words.
I guess in a nutshell this is me blogging about how girly girl I am. I don’t know. But I do know that this is what I felt impressed to blog at 2:30am about. :))
<3 Ash
