One thing i need to learn is to remember that although God has given me the desire to be out there in the world, and that I will be leaving for a year in 5 short months, right now, i am here.
i get so caught up with the world race and my new squad mates that i forget about my life here and my friends here.
not that i don't love hanging out with my friends, but i'm going through things that they aren't and it's taking over my life and they don't really get it. It's not that it's their fault, it's just that God is giving them something else.
i find it difficult sometimes though. when i talk to my squadmates, i get so overwhelmed with joy that can only come from the Holy Spirit. And i remember my purpose and the reason why am i doing all these things. But when i hangout with my friends, i get so consumed by worldly concerns like losing weight or what makeup to wear, and I forget that God is sovereign and he is the Lord of the universe and there are more important things than my first world problems.
BUT, that is not the right way to look at things. I need to be able to experience God and the power of the Holy Spirit regardless of where I am or who I am with. I need to be able to experience God from within and not by my surroundings. And i think I am getting better at it by the grace of God. Now i recognize what I am missing, and i feel the grieving of the Spirit every time I put my focus on something that is not glorifying to the Lord. And i've been praying nonstop lately.
I know i have a lot to learn and a lot more ways to go. What I learned from the message this morning was we have to pray and rejoice in the process that the Lord does through us much as we pray for the promised land, the end result. And so while the Lord is still in process of molding my character, I shall rejoice. And rejoice as much when he has lead me to the promised land.
