First He said to me, “You must give me your identity. You don’t see yourself the way I see you. You see yourself the way the world sees you.
Because God knows me inside and out, He knew it would take more than words to get me to see what He wanted me to see. So on the third night of camp I stood underneath the pavilion where most of our worship services were held and began to enter into worship. As I stood there, I felt as though I was swept away into a different world. I felt the presence of God in such a strong way, I can’t even describe it. I was almost scared to move, for fear I would snap out of it.
I saw myself sitting in a chair beside Jesus’ throne. It wasn’t who I am today but it was me as a little girl. I got out of the chair and began dancing and spinning in circles but I couldn’t stop looking back at the expression on Jesus’ face as He watched me. The expression said “that is my beautiful daughter and I am so proud she is mine.” I heard Him say “April this is how I see you, as my innocent baby girl. I don’t see the mistakes you have made or the person the world has tried to make you become. I see you as pure and innocent and I am proud to call you my child.”
Then He asked me to come sit in His lap and lay my head on His chest to rest, so I did. As soon as I put my head on His chest I felt His heart beat. It was so real. At that moment I knew this wasn’t just a dream or hallucination…it was real…He is proud to be my daddy and wants to hold me in His arms. Then He said to me, “I want to take you on an adventure.” My mind immediately jumped to world race, my financial situation, and everything I was going to have to give up. And I said, “Daddy I want to go because I love you but it’s just to expensive, I don’t know if I have what it takes.” And He said, “When you were a little girl and your daddy took you out on an adventure, did you ever worry about having money? No, because you knew your daddy always took care of you. I am your daddy and I am going with you. You don’t have to worry about a thing. Just hold my hand and walk.”
So we started to walk hand in hand. My three steps to His one, I was trailing behind Him. He looked back and said to me, “Not only will I take care of your needs but because I am your daddy and I love you, I am going to give you gifts along the way. Whatever you ask for is yours.” I looked up at Him in amazement and said, “Really? Anything?” He said, “Yes my beautiful daughter, anything.” I looked around and realized we were walking through the nations. There were people everywhere but a few stood out to me. I said,
“Daddy, can I have Him?”
“Yes.”
“What about her?”
“Yes.”
“And that little boy too?”
“Consider it done.”
I was so overwhelmed with excitement; I started getting bolder with my requests.
“Daddy, what about that group of people over there?”
“Yes.”
“That whole orphanage?”
“Yes.”
“That brothel?”
“Yes!”
I was beginning to look like a little kid in a candy store.
“How about the whole country?”
“Done”
“India?”
“Yes, my dear.”
“Philippines?”
“Yes, whatever you ask in my name will be given to you.”
