I haven’t blogged recently.
I can make up excuses but the point of all of this is to be honest. So here’s the truth: I haven’t really been excited about the going on the World Race. I know…you didn’t see that coming did you? Guess what? There’s more. I even thought about not going.
And to tell people that is kind of scary. I mean I’m meant to be the excited one!
In my head, I thought of all these reasons and justifications for not going. Maybe this isn’t what God has for me? Maybe there is something else? Maybe I can just do something here in Australia. But really it was just fear, doubt and a whole heap of laziness.
For sure, it’s much easier to sit in my room in comfy Australia, than to pack a bag and live out of it for a year…but is ‘easy’ what I really want?
Praying, I asked God to show me why I’m going. Instead of a clear, audible answer He lead me to read some old prayer journal entries from earlier this year.
“I want big things for this year…There has to be more than this!?”
“God, sometimes my mind is so far away. I dream about distant places and living among people I don’t know. My heart goes wild. I think that comes from you.”
“I have a sense of urgency and desperation. A sense that you’re saying ‘Go!’ I don’t understand where?”
“God you’ve got my attention. I’m listening and I’ll go wherever you send me.”
“I feel like I’m a little bit at a crossroad. Wondering if I should just take a crazy, different path for awhile.”
I asked God for more adventure. I asked for more of Him and He answered. Now is my time to trust.
Honestly, I’m so excited for this trip! I’ve had to time to think about the purpose and meaning of it all and even though I don’t exactly know what’s going to happen…I have a feeling it’s going to be amazing!
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And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.” – Isaiah 6:8
