Sorry this blog has taken so long to write! The Lord has been working on me through all of this process and shown me that this isn’t something I can just race through. This is something I have to take the time to walk through and live out. These aren’t just words on a page, they are life and truth. They are light breaking through darkness.
In my last blog about deliverance I talked a lot about how the process happened and how I saw God working in it. In this post I want to go a little deeper and get a little uglier in order to show the beauty of the freedom I walk in now.
So here we go…
These are the 12 lies I believed to be true in my life.
These are the words that are true about my life and who I am.
These are the scriptures that prove to me what the truth really is.
Lie 1.
I am an outcast.
I am Gods favorite & friend.
Romans 5:11 “So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God.”
Lie 2.
If I disappeared no one would really notice and it wouldn’t really change anything.
I am important, indispensable, necessary, useful, irreplaceable, needed.
Luke 12:6-7 “are not 5 sparrows sold for 2 pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why even the hairs on your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows.”
Psalm 138:8 “The LORD will fufill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands.”
Ephesians 2:10 “For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”
Lie 3.
No one really loves me, they just tolerate me.
I am beloved
Colossians 3:12 “put on then, as Gods chosen and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience.”
Lie 4.
I am the least favorite in the family.
I am cherished and loved
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
Psalm 63:3 “Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.”
Lie 5.
God just says he forgives me and loves me, but really he is just angry with me and frustrated with me.
I am forgiven, wanted, & chased
1 John 1:9 “if we confess our sins he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
Isaiah 1:18 “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are as read as crimson, they shall be like wool.”
Micah 7:18 “who is a God like you, who pardons son and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.”
Lie 6.
God is disappointed to call me his daughter.
I am his princess & approved
John 15:16 “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit-fruit that will last- and so that whatever you ask in my name the father will give to you.”
Ephesians 1:5 “God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ.”
Romans 8:16-17 “The spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs- heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.”
Lie 7.
This is a lie that I have to share with my family before I can share it on here, but I will still put the truths about myself on here
I am simply loved & indispensible
Zephaniah 3:17 “The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exault over you with loud singing.”
Lie 8.
I am too broken to be fixed
I am whole and complete
Colossians 2:10 “So you are complete through your union with Christ, who is head over every ruler and authority.”
Lie 9.
I am not beautiful.
I am alluring, divine, exquisite, graceful, radiant, &wonderful
Song of Solomon 4:7 “You are all together beautiful my darling, there is no flaw in you”
Psalm 139:14 “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well”
Lie 10.
I am too far gone to get back to my true self
Jesus is my true self, I am lively, capable, &saved
Galatians 2:20 :I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in he flesh I live by faith in the son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
Lie 11.
I am not allowed to be a Child
I am silly, goofy, innocent, a lamb, “squirt”, candid, natural, sincere, & filled with joy
Galatians 3:6 “For you are all children of God through Faith in Christ Jesus.”
John 1:12 “But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become Children of God.”
Lie 12.
Because I am a missionary I can’t mess up
I am forgiven, messy, &imperfect
Ephesians 2:8-10 “God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.”
I am still learning how to believe these truths whole heartedly. This is a process that God it teaching me takes patience. It is a journey I need His strength to walk in. My prayer is that through reading this some light would have been shown to you. Maybe you struggle with some of the same lies and this truth is awakening for you. Or maybe you just needed a reminder to know who you are. Either way I pray that the Lord spoke to you through this.
I plan on writing a blog soon about life here in Mi Casa, but for a quick update I will just let you know that my team is learning the lesson here that ministry is life. Its loving kids and watching tv with them. Its getting up at 5:20 to go running with them (or sleeping in to do zumba with them in the afternoon). Its coloring and crafting with them. It’s taking silly pictures with them. Its picking Piojos out of their hair. Ministry doesn’t have to be the big stuff like preaching or building houses; it is also the simple joys of every day life.
Thank you for taking the time to read this blog about what the Lord has been doing in my life here. I want to ask that you would be in prayer over my team and squad as we prepare to leave for Malawi in a few short weeks and also that God will be preparing us to face the spiritual warfare in that country.
I love you all! Videos/Pictures coming soon!
