Today I was asked to fill out something that I have learned this week from God for my C&C. A C&C is a Challenges and Celebrations form that we are asked to fill out weekly so our team leaders, squad leaders, and squad mentors can pray for us and know whats up in our lives. I feel led share what I wrote with y’all what I wrote for this weeks’ learning.
What has the Lord revealed to you this week? He has revealed to me that I do not need to be discouraged when I’m not getting along with people or I’m not feeling like I’m a part of a group or that I’m uncomfortable. I am not here for those purposes. I am here to do His work. I am here because He called me here. He has a purpose for me being here. He keeps calling me back to the passage where he called the disciples to come and follow him. One man said, Lord let me stay and bury my father, and Jesus said no. (this is the summary not the full thing) When that man said “let me bury my father,” he didn’t mean his father was already dead. His father was still alive and possibly had many more years to live. The man just wanted to be there when his father passed so he could be there for his burial. Jesus was calling him to a place away from his family, away from his comforts. This man stood up to the challenge. I’m almost 100% positive that this man wasn’t always happy once he followed Christ. I’m sure he had moments where he wanted to go home. Where he missed his family. Where he missed his comfortable. But he stuck with Christ and had a more fulfilling life that he ever would have if he hadn’t followed Christ. I feel like that’s me right now. I don’t always have happy days. I want to go home sometimes and see my family and be with my stuff and my car and my cat. But I know that my purpose is so much greater than that. I know my father has so much more joy for me than that. And He’s been teaching me how to see that.
So this is just a little bit of insight to how the Lord is training me to rely on Him and not others. I asked him a few weeks ago to take me deeper with Him. I told Him I don’t want to go anywhere without Him, but I’m having trouble realizing how much I have to change my normal in order to do that.
Life here is crazy. I’m pretty sure I tell my girls daily, “I can’t believe THIS is our life. I can’t believe THIS is our normal!” I am living a life full of Jesus, worship, waterfalls, volcanoes, street markets, coffee, beaches, and papusas. I am living the dream. Even in all of this excitement, I find myself missing my comfortable. Because if I’m honest, sometimes I’m just ready for this dream to be over. God keeps showing me that He has so much more for me though. He has so much more than my comfortable. He has so much more for me than a life lived in my normal. His normal is better. His normal is mountain-moving miracles. His normal is open salvation. His normal is unending love. His normal is drowning grace. His normal is overwhelming peace. His normal is better.
Now for an update on life here! El Salvador is a beautiful home. With beautiful people who are open with their lives and love. Everyone here is kind and hospitable. I’ve met many people who have asked me “Why El Salvador? Why such a dangerous place?” Every time I get asked this I chuckle a little because I literally haven’t had one single moment where I didn’t feel safe. I go to a gang village like place three times a week and have felt nothing but joy. I work with prostitutes on the side of the road late at night and have never felt uneasy. I ride the public busses and have never had anything but a fun expierence. So when I’m asked this I simply reply “well, someone has to do it!” SO, needless to say, life here is lovely. God is good. I am so lucky to get to see him work in such big ways daily.
These past few days have been a little rough though. Many members of my squad, and even sweet Allie on my team have gotten sick from different things and have been in the hospital. So for a prayer request I would like to ask that you would be in prayer over sickness. Pray that Abba would give doctors wisdom and that He would prevent any of us from getting sick. Allie is doing much better today and is actually on her way home right now from her second hospital visit. Prayers specifically for rest over her would be greatly appreciated! Our team hasn’t been the same without her, so we want her to get better as soon as possible!
Thanks for taking time to read through this! I miss you all and I cant tell yall how much I appreciate your emails, comments, and prayers! You are all so awesome! I love you!
