“You just have to run and jump and not think about it” this is a phrase I heard a lot this past weekend while at this thing called “family camp”, which is a thing where a bunch of family friends all get together with the purpose of drawing closer to each other and God for a weekend. I mainly heard this phrase while watching people try and convince their friends and family to go on the Blob, otherwise known as an air mattress in water that throws you up into the air when someone jumps onto the opposite side of you from pretty high up.
At the time, I was thinking nothing of that phrase, but how true it is for my life! These past few days have been the hardest of my life. Saying goodbyes, see ya laters, and giving hugs for the last time for the next nine months has been the most trying and emotionally draining experiences I’ve ever had. So hard that I have been struggling with the idea of leaving all of this good stuff behind.
I just have to “run and jump and not think about it!”
Or at least not think about all of the uncertainty and scary stuff.
I need to keep remembering that yes, I am leaving something good, but I’m leaving to something good too!
John 10:10 says “The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.”
And that’s what He’s going to do. He called me into these next nine months and they are going to be a part of my “rich and satisfying life.” He is going to push me so far out of my comfort zone where I have no choice but to meet God and say “you are better”. Because He is! He is better than all my riches, all my comforts, all my sorrows, & all my victories. He is so much better!
I AM excited to begin this journey tomorrow, but at the same time I am scared, saddened, and skeptical. But that’s ok, because it’s not my job to always remain happy, it’s my job to say “here I am Lord, send me.”
So here I go. Tomorrow I catch a flight out of a town that I have called my home for the past 10 years, leaving the people I have called my family behind. And I’m not ready. I don’t think I’ll ever be “ready.” But it’s come time for me to “run and jump and not think about it.”
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Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I begin this wild journey, as well as my family, team, and those I come into contact with. Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive and loving. Thanks for giving me something to miss! I love you all!
