At training camp, daddy Mike would always start one of his
brilliant talks with just prophesying over us. I have to be honest, that was my favorite part. I was not used to hearing directly from
God, didn’t know that was possible.
One night, he pointed me out.
He said to me, “I don’t know if you have singing abilities but you have
a song inside of you. When you
worship, the enemy is terrified.
You have to sing out.” Now,
when he first pointed me out, I was like a gitty little girl, huge smile from
ear to ear. As he is saying this
to me, slowly, my ear to ear smile gets a little fake and grim. I can only imagine by the time he was done
and moving on, I had a sheer look of terror on my face. In my head I’m saying “you are
nuts. You are totally crazy. No, absolutely not. Have you heard me sing, no!” Over the next couple months, I tried to
let that one slide but it kept looming over me. I tried really really hard to slide under the radar…. Denial.
Then we hit Nicaragua debrief. It happened again.
Basically the same word.
Daddy Mike didn’t even remember the word he gave me at camp. To be honest, my initial reaction was
“crap”.
Over the next couple months, this word, this burden started
becoming a desire of my heart. I
want it so bad but I’m not good enough.
Pick someone else, someone who actually has the talent…… God is the maker of persistence.
A couple months later, we are at Thailand debrief. I have come to this place where it is
not a burden to me, it’s not just a desire of mine, it’s in me. It’s been in me the whole time, it just
took me believing I am enough. I
no longer desire to walk in anointing, I AM walking in it. I no longer anticipate being able to
heal, I AM a healer. I no longer
crave to walk in the spirit, IT IS IN ME every second of every day. I no longer dream about walking in
greatness, I AM GREATNESS. Now is
the time.
