When I signed up for this race, I “knew” it was going to be challenging. I “knew” my heart would break for people. I “knew” i would fall in love. With that, I “knew” my heart would break about 11 times, maybe more. This is all head knowledge and the reality of it is heavy. The truth is, I have fallen in love with these orphans. I had a hard time when we first started visiting these children because I didn’t just want to be another person to turn my back on them. Another person in their life to leave, but God told me not to worry. He is their constant. He is their daddy when they don’t have one. He is the one that will never leave. As long as we do our part and plant that seed in them, God is always with them, loving them. We said bye to them yesterday. They took a piece of my heart with them. I know that God is proud of the work we have done in them. I know that He is surrounding his beautiful children with his love.
One of the hardest parts of leaving is knowing that the place they are living is so corrupt. We have found out that some of the girls are being abused. We know that the owners of the orphanage don’t care for it and don’t care about the children. I have cleaned their bathrooms, their toilets that don’t flush and are left that way. I have cut their grass with a machete and found soiled clothing and dead rats. These are living conditions no child should be living in. I know that some of the donated clothing and food gets taken and sold. I also know that the orphanage we are leaving is not the same as when we first got there. God used us to bring his light into the darkest of places.
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