Oh God, how great you are. Oh God, how great you are. Majestic, beautiful, handsome, strong, all rolled into one. You are the one worthy of everything. You are it- beginning, middle, end, all of it. My life. You are my life. I live to exalt. How extravagant is your love, Oh God. You adore us, when we are not worthy of any of it. We deserve to be— we don’t even deserve to exist, God. But, no, you adore us. You have set your affections on us. Your heart is ours. Our hearts are yours, we adore you, we want to be consumed by you. I want to be consumed by you. You are worth our adoration, our praise, ecerything we have is yours already, and you deserve it all. But, God, what love, what strange love that you would set your heart for us. That you would create us above the angels? What am I that you would create me above the angels? What beauty am I? I am the apple of your eye, but why, God? Why? Why do you not only say I am the apple of your eye, and also protect me from the worms that could drill holes into me? What extravagant love.
Oh you are mad.
Crazy. I do not say this in offense. I say it because it is how I can get my brain to begin to understand the peaces of you. You set your heart for me. You love me. With such true, inexplicable love, that pierces through everything in my soul. You are like the rain, a torrential downpour that I am walking through- every fiber of my being is soaked in you. How can I not be soaked by you? You are like the light, shining, bursting forth, spreading, contagious, in the dark night. How can I not be pierced by you? Oh God, mighty one, beautiful one of all the ages, how can people not fall head over heels in love at first sight.
I didn’t believe in love at first sight, until I met you. You, oh you, have captured my heart. Truly. Madly. Deeply, forever, because of all the becauses. The list of becauses is too long. If I were to write them down, I would spend my entire life, without sleeping, writing down the reasons. They can all be summed up into one: love. This deep, extravagant, crazed love that you have for me. How can I not be drunk with love for you? You intoxicate every fiber of my being. Even when I don’t feel it, even when I feel dry, or like you don’t answer me, my heart is yours. Every fiber of my being has been swept away by you, and I know that you will not remove the ring of your finger. You will not divorce me, and I will not divorce you. Oh such love, oh such love, oh such love.
You are the lion. You are the lion that loves. I call you, you answer. I’m done trying to fight the enemy, it’s not my battle, and it’s a waste of time. I don’t want to give him any time, because that is time away from you. It’s your battle, and you’ve already won. When he comes, roaring in the night, or the day, I thank you that you are not far away. You are not even away. You roar, and he shakes. He flees, because He is no match for you, Oh Almighty One. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, you came. You died. You rose. You came, you died. You rose. Because of it, I have risen. I know that means that I am a lion, but I don’t want to be my own lion, away from you. I want to nuzzle in your mane, Oh God. I want to go where you go, and be where you are.
I thank you God that we can sleep in your mane. That you cleanse us, like a lioness to her cubs, and you watch over us. Perfect peace, and perfect safety are found in you. I thank you that you teach us how to fight, how to roar, and that you play with us. I just… I just see me nuzzling in your mane. I want to nuzzle in your mane. It’s so soft.
NO man can tame you, God. No man, or beast. You are the untamable one. You are wild, and uncontrollable, and unpredictable, but you are good. You are safe always. You are safe always. You are never far away. You are never away. My hand in yours, your hand in mine, forever. Forever. Oh God, I do wonder what eternity is like with you.
