My name is Anna Beth Cook and this is what Satan, the accuser, says to me:
Anna Beth,
Haha Why are you even on the World Race? Did you really think that you could do this? Look at how much of a failure you are! Everyone else is more talented than you. You have nothing to offer. You are too broken, too proud, too self-absorbed, too weird, too unacceptable, too ugly. Your failures are too big for the blood of Jesus to cover. Give up. You’re never going to be better. God doesn’t love you, he never has.
Social awkwardness defines you. When you walk into a room, no one notices you. Did you really think that you could walk away from this fear of rejection. You are always going to be a reject. No one is ever going to love you or pursue you. You aren’t worth it.
And oh my goodness, your lack of self-control is horrendous. You should be ashamed. Just give into the temptation to eat all the food you want & spend all the money you want. Self-control is so overrated. You’re on an adventure, live it up!! Food is a great place to go to find security & comfort.
Pride is so much better than humility. Humility is for the weak. Those who are humble go unnoticed.
No good luck to you!
The One Who Knows it All
My name is Anna Beth Cook and this is what my God says to me:
Anna Beth,
You are such a delight! I smile when I see you. Your smile makes others smile. Don’t underestimate the power of a smile or laughter. 🙂
I have chosen you. You are my child. You are more loved than you could ever imagine. I love you with an unconditional love. I will never abandon you or reject you like those in your past.
So no matter how much you doubt my love for you, try to control things, believe the lies of the enemy, choose bitterness over joy, doubt your purpose, feel confused, compare yourself to others, put me in a box, or allow pride to control you you will always have a place to come back to.
It hurts me to see you run to these things & allow them to be your guide rather than me. I have so much in store for you if you will let go. Stop striving. Come to me with your brokenness & allow me to fix it. You cant change your heart. That is only something I can do.
Let go of the expectations you have placed on yourself.
Let go of your pride.
Let go of your worry.
Let go of trying to control everything so it turns out perfectly.
Let go of the expectations you have placed on others.
Let go of the expectations you have placed on this year.
Let go of the expatriations you have placed on the ministry you are involved in.
Let go of the expectations you have placed on your team.
Choose gratitude. Moment-by-moment come into my presence.
Believe that I am patient, I am kind, I am slow to anger, I am constant, I am pursuing you even when you dont want to be pursued. My daughter, I want more for you. Just like you wanted freedom for Crockett, I want that freedom for you. That freedom takes discipline. That freedom takes dependence on the Holy Spirit more than yourself.
Keep asking questions. Keep seeking counsel. Allow others to love you and serve you. Allow your emotions to come to the surface. It’s okay to not be okay.
Stop taking yourself & life so seriously. I have created you as a woman who loves to have fun. Embrace each moment. Celebrate each moment. Be anxious for NOTHING.
Remember whose you are,
Your Gracious Father
