OH MY STARS! IS THIS REAL LIFE?!?!
One week from today I will be headed down to Atlanta, GA for launch! We will have some more training and then be India bound! It’s super hard to believe that I’m about to leave for 11 months. It won’t really sink in until I am in India.
As I have been preparing to leave, I have been experiencing many different emotions: excitement, gratitude, anxiety, brokenness, and fear.
– Excitement for this opportunity to go and be the hands and feet of Jesus.
– Excitement for building relationships with people from all over the world.
– Excitement for the new experiences and lessons I will learn.
– Excitement for what the Lord is going to do.
– Grateful that I have $13,316 of the $17,017!!! I only need $3,701 to be fully funded!
(Please pray with me that this will come in this week, although it is not required for me to be fully funded before I leave, I would LOVE to be)
– Grateful for quality time spent with friends and family over the last two months.
– Anxiety over all I have to get done before I leave.
– Anxiety over how our team will work together.
– Brokenness over my self-absorption, envy, fear and lack of fear of the Lord.
– Fear of the unknown as far as relational dynamics on the race
– Fear of rejection
– Fear of failure
– Fear of people
– Fear of loneliness
This is just the honest assessment of my heart as I prepare to leave. It’s easy at times to let my emotions dictate my joy. However, I have been reminded continually that my feelings do not determine truth. Truth is determined by the Word of God. Oh how grateful I am for that!!
I hope that y’all have a wonderful New Year’s Eve!
