Welcome to Guatemala!
It is unseasonably mild here, yeah that's right, prayers and words are powerful! Plus it's the rainy season… but it's still nice and cool, and that's all that matters to me, well that and that the floor of my tent stays dry. Thanks to some pine needles that is more likely to happen tonight (Throws hand up in praise). Anywho, on to what I came on here to blog about.
We were singing with the nannies here at, Los Gozosos, an orphanage and home for kids with disabilities. All the songs are in Spanish, thanks to three semesters of college Spanish I understand every third word (bonus), What really struck me is their devotion to worship and prayer. We're here behind walls that are fifteen feet high and topped with razor wire, we have a night guard and a special security system, and work, work, work, work, work, work, all day. Not an exageration. These women display sacrifice and devotion in such incredible ways. Their days start at around four thirty in the morning with showering and changing the kids, they braid and do the girls hair every day (a beautiful act of love), cook every meal from scratch, do physical therapy, CLEAN, WASH, and take the time to worship the one on whom they rely for the ability to do it all.
For someone who is learning the difficult lesson (difficult for me) to surrender and rest in God, this is downright encouraging. I'm going to start small, surrendering my worries throughout the day and then we'll see what happens. Just remembering that I'm not living this life on my own, in fact it's not my life to live, it's God's, and that scares me for some reason. Yeah this blog just took a nose dive off the high dive into the deep end. This whole "needing to be in control thing" isn't new, but it's getting the boot. I'm going to rest in God and what He says about me and trust in Him, because the truth is, if I do it, I will fail, if He does it there will be success, His success, and that's what matters. So if you're looking for a prayer request for me, join me in praying that I rest in Him. Sounds easy, but I really don't have any clue what it looks like, so the Spirit will take the reins and I will abide. Crikey this is hard. God's already won this battle. I am so thankful that He has put me here among such beautiful people and inspiring circumstances. I'm also thankful for this lesson, I don't want to rely on me, I want to rely on Him. He's better. Greater. Stronger. He's God.
