“my heart hurts…”
Yesterday (Day 1) was really hard. I cried a lot because of the weight of all the love that surrounded me as I was leaving home. It was so hard bc I felt like I only realized what I was leaving behind as I was leaving it or a little after I was leaving… As I was walking down the hallway to the plane, I was by myself stuck behind a slow moving elderly man and I was so close to wailing and all I could think was “oh man, I’m really doing this and it’s really hard!”
Yesterday was such a crazy day. Each and every person that was with me had a purpose. Of the dear ones who was with me yesterday morning, one made copies, one carried my bags and held the car so my dad could say goodbye, one checked in for me bc I was running late… It was so hard leaving them… And my parents – it was really hard leaving them bc I realized too late that I hadn’t spent enough time with them. And with everything they are going through, it just hurts so much leaving them behind… But they surrounded me with such an amazing love and support. I am beyond blessed. Even up until my gate at the airport, I was surrounded by such love. One of my dear friends walked me all the way to the gate. I’m so blessed and so thankful for all of them…
I know that I’m called here for a purpose and I know that even though there is pain and mountains of worry, I’m confident and I am choosing to stand strong and believe that my God is so much bigger than that and that as long as we dwell in Him, I will have no fear.
