Wow, what a
week. And I’m only halfway through training. I feel like I’ve been on a roller
coaster of emotions the past few days, and I know that I have a long way to
go. Basically, God is using this
training camp (and probably the whole race) to give me what seems like heart
surgery. He has taken the past few days to make it clear to me that there are
things in my life that I have blatantly put in his place. Comforts that I have
been clinging to rather than looking to Him. I know that I can’t continue
clinging to these things and run into the kingdom the way that I want to. I
have been living in comfort, and essentially in sin. I have spent the last
months of my life quenching the spirit that lives inside of me. This week is
showing me that this is the time to start making the tough decisions that it’s
going to take to run into the kingdom and to feed the spirit inside of me. This
means making the choice to leave all of the things that have given me comfort.
Honestly, it’s terrifying. I can hardly breathe. There is so much unbelief in
my heart, but I’m learning that moment by moment I have to make the choice to
believe and keep moving forward,
even when I feel like its impossible. Faith is a choice. So, World Race 2010,
here we go…
