I read a great book recently called Rooms by James Rubart, where a man inherits a beautiful, beach front house that ends up being his soul. Each room has a different purpose and meaning. I love this metaphor and the Lord has really been using it lately to teach me more about Him.
It has been the cry of my heart for quite some time to be a prayer warrior, to allow my thoughts to be constant prayers, that they would never cease. Last night I feel like God answered that prayer.
Yesterday was an all day conference where we worshipped and were greatly encouraged. I am so thankful that God met me so sweetly in a way that I’ve longed for. After hearing a great word I felt called to stand in a corner and pour out my prayers to the Father. As I moved, eyes shut, focused on seeing the face of God, words just kept flowing and flowing from my lips. My prayers took place for over an hour and I never ran out of praises and requests to whisper to my Father.
Earlier in the day as the pastor was blessing people, they kept falling to the ground, experiencing God in intimate ways. Now I will be the first to admit that with my baptist background this weirded me out. I now see how it blesses people and how ultimately we have control over how we respond to the Spirit. Seeing everyone experience such intimacy with God made me thirsty for more.
I am like a house of many rooms. The innermost room, in the center of all that I am, is where the majority of my soul resides. This room is where I am nervous to let the Holy Spirit fully in. The door is slightly open and I allow the Father to have one foot in the room, causing a thin line of light to pour in.
Father,
Why am I afraid to let You burst into the depths of my soul and allow You to fully overwhelm me? My heart wants to let You break down the door and drown me in your all-encompassing living water. Quench the constant thirst I have for MORE OF YOU.
So I pray for more days like today when I wake up with thoughts of Your greatness filling my mind, giving my actions, thoughts, and intentions for the day over to You. I’ll continue taking time to ask what it will take for You to break down the door of the innermost dwelling place of my heart. For there is nothing I long for more than full and complete intimacy with You.
“There is a wide open door for a great work here, although many oppose me.” 1 Corinthians 16:9
As I walk with You daily I know that there are adversaries that will try to harm me and my ministry. I know that You are stronger and more mighty and that anything not of Your presence will never stand a chance. Continue to further open the door that is hidden deep in my soul. Continue romancing me with Your sweet, tender presence so that I may have Your eyes in seeing opportunities and open doors to furthering Your Kingdom here on earth.
