Everyday I wake up I have to remind myself where I am. Believe me it gets confusing after 4 months of living out of a backpack and traveling all over the world. It hit me today as I rode in the back/trunk area of an SUV to Tent City to do a feeding that this is everyday life for me. A lot of times it’s a struggle to get up out of bed and actually want to do ministry. My body is exhausted, physically drained, sometimes mentally and emotionally as well, but everyday spiritually I have enough to get me through. It’s a miracle in and of itself some days.
Everyday I choose to let God use me to be his hands and be his feet. Everyday I see the fruits of my labor and smile because I know they are not really my fruits because I couldn’t have done it alone. Everyday I am presented with an opportunity to serve. God doesn’t force me to do anything just because I chose to follow his call and go on the World Race and be a “missionary”. He presents them to me ever so skillfully and I can choose to go or I can choose to do what I want.
This month I struggled at first with not feeling like I was doing enough. I was teaching art Monday, Wednesday, Friday. I had Saturdays off and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I would go out and do feedings, go up to the children’s home, or do whatever was available. It was on Tuesdays and Thursdays that I felt like I wasn’t doing enough. I would go out on “dates” with teammates between feedings and sometimes wouldn’t get back in time to go to the evening feeding. I asked God to help me because I knew that just because my “ministry” was in an eight hour block like it was every other day I was still doing enough. That’s when God pointed out to me that even spending time with my teammates was doing ministry. And as long as I was choosing to be in his presence that it’s exactly where I needed to be. From then on I haven’t struggled with it at all.
Everyday life is ministry. Going out and feeding people, taking care of them, teaching them is all ministry. Simply loving is ministry. Taking a rest day is ministry. Why? Because I am spending the time doing all those things in his presence. From here on out even after I get home I will walk in that truth knowing that just by living my everyday life and choosing and seeking out the Lord is more than enough.
