Crazy
how fast times goes. Now that I
know my launch date (October 2, 2010) they seem to be going even faster. I have
37 days! That is totally crazy! The past couple of days have been packed full.
I think to myself I’m going to miss doing this, will I be able to do this on
the race? The chances are probably not. The devil sees this and tries to take a
foothold. He turns my thoughts into chaos, fear, and doubt. He keeps trying to
say to me “You are not ready for this.�, “You can’t do this.�, “Why did you
sign up for this?� You know what I want to do every time I feel that way? I
want to PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE!
My
mind still races though with questions. Why did I sign up for this race? Was it
for my own gain and wanting to see the world? Did God really call me to this? God
has given me the answers to the questions I ask him. I signed up for the race
because there was more than a whisper in my heart to go out and stand up to the
injustices in the world. I am more than a conqueror and God has prepared me for
this, slowly shaping my life and my heart until I was ready to hand my life
completely over to him. There was a purpose for my sufferings. You see I have
been justified; I
am confidant that God will perfect the work He has begun in me. I now know that
I have not been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self-discipline.
I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me. I am dead to sin! I am a
dwelling for the Holy Spirit and God’s power works through me. So therefore, it
was not for my own gain that I signed up for the race, but for Christ’s gain.
He knows my heart and continues to fight for it. He is the romancer of my soul.
He knew how much I wanted to see the world and how much my heart longs to share
love, so he has hand picked me, my teammates, my squad, my leaders, and the
people we will come in contact with for this race. I will bring him honor and
glory while he continues to melt my heart so to speak.
So
I now declare that these last few days here in America will be for my father in
heaven. I am ready. We are ready. We are your chosen children and you have made
and determined everything to work out for the good. The entire S-squad will
leave for Guatemala on October 2 together. To the devil I say you will not
break us. You have no right to hold us down. Are you ready for a good punch in
the face because we will be unstoppable? In Jesus’ name so let it be!
