I don't want to go
I don't want to do this
I am busy
I need rest
I didn't even have a choice
I was complaining and resisting before I even gave this thing a chance.
In my eyes, it was no good. There wasn't any fruit going to come from it.
It was going to be a waste of time.
But how?! How can I make such assumptions, when I haven't even entered in this place yet. How can I make such a naive statement?
So I go. Not because I want to, but because I get to.
Me and the 3 guys I'm with walk into a meeting that the leadership team of the church is having. They are going over a book called Spiritual Leadership.
Within 10 minutes of them discussing the chapters they just read, one of them makes a comment of how "we are to die to ourselves daily."
Then It happened.
It felt like a ton of bricks were thrown at me.
It hurt.
It was uncomfortable.
It was painful.
Jesus humbly showed me that I wasn't dying to myself daily.
This is what He calls us to do… daily
There are going to be times that we are going to be put into situations that we don’t want to be apart of. I believe that the Lord has us do things that we might not want to do because He knows the end result and the fruit that is going to come from it.
The rest of the weekend was great. I got to build relationships with a couple of families that we connected with. It was great hearing their stories and they enjoyed hearing ours. We connected right away and it was as though we have been friends for quite some time.
Through this experience I have been learning to be more aware of what the Lord is asking of me. To walk in the knowledge that where He is leading me may not look and sound so appealing, but that the fruit that is going to come from it will be more appetizing if I just trust in His understanding.
Proverbs 3:5 – "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and
Lean not on your own understanding"
Galatians 2:20 – "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live;
but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh
I live by faith in the Son of God, who love me and gave Himself for me."
