After graduating from college in May, I was offered a job with my long time employer. It didn’t take any persuading for me to accept the position and avoid the hassle of sending out resumes and seeking interviews. However, by the end of my first month as a full-time worker, I was already questioning if this was where I needed to be. I thought about looking for another job, but just never acted upon it. Then I considered going back to school to study art, but never felt God’s peace about that decision. In my state of uncertainty, I knew my only option was to let go and leave God in control of my situation.
As I carried on with my work and comfortable routine, something began changing in my heart. I saw God take my discontentment and replace it with a great desire to know His will and a passion to make a difference in this world. I could feel something building in my spirit and I just knew God had something huge in store for me. Wanting to make myself available for anything, I constantly prayed, “God, have your way with me.”
This is when He really showed up.
Right about this time, I found myself reading a World Race support letter written by a friend of mine. We had talked briefly about her upcoming missions trip a couple weeks earlier, but she thought it would be helpful if I read her letter as well. Whether she knew it or not, God really wanted me to read that letter!
As I sat on my bed, reading those words, the weirdest thing happened. It was as if my own thoughts, and concerns, and longings where there before me. I was no longer reading about my friend’s calling, I was reading about my own calling to serve on the mission field. Here are some of her words.
“Our hearts should break for the things that
break the heart of God because He has replaced our stony
dead hearts with His massive, beating, heart of flesh.
His heart is alive and it feels. If we are claiming to be His
children, we have His heart. And His heart is with the
down-trodden, broken hearted out-casts.”
Yeah, pretty powerful!
In those few moments, I felt the Holy Spirit move within me in a way that I had never experienced before! It was simply amazing. I was left stunned and in awe of my great and mighty God.
The next day, I was still overwhelmed by everything. I couldn’t think about anything else. I felt so empowered, so moved. At this point, I knew in my heart that God was calling me to be a part of the World Race. I had to obey.
***You should definitely read the rest of my friend’s letter and support her! Check it out here.***
