Little insight to my life here for those reading who aren’t aware. I was born with albinism, which can mean a lot of different things, but for me means I am very easily burnt in the sun and I have low vision. At one time in life my vision without my glasses on was bad enough I was considered legally blind when I wasn’t wearing glasses. My eyes have gotten a little better since then, but still aren’t great. With my glasses on I can see 20/100. Which means what you can see from 100 feet away I have to be 20 feet away to see the same. Pretty much this is really poor eyesight.
This isn’t something I’ve ever let get me down though. I grew up this way so I’ve known nothing else in my life. I have learned how to adapt and move through life on my own. I do occasionally ask for help, but I know how to get by on my own when there is nobody to ask too. It’s just how life has been for me for the last 27 years. I’ve accepted it and I’m okay with it. I even dubbed myself The Blind Kid and wore the nickname with pride. Why not? It is part of me, I might as well be proud of who I am right?
However, recently some things have happened and it is crazy cool. I will share all of this with you now.
Last week we were having a team worship time. I was sitting towards the back worshiping when Amy and Erin (who I had the privilege of working with last month in Darwin) came up to me and sat down. Amy said that back in Darwin she had felt God tell her to pray for healing for my eyes, but didn’t want to do it. She said that right then God was telling her to do it again and that this time she was going to listen. So she and Erin prayed that God would give me perfect vision. I opened my eyes and nothing seemed to have changed really. I prayed afterwards and felt like God told me to take off my glasses and leave them off as an act of walking in faith of what He was going to do for my eyes. I left them off that night. I didn’t tell anyone why though and by the next morning when I couldn’t read, and was afraid to tell others why I wasn’t wearing glasses now I decided to put them back on. Even though I told God I would go without them until He brought the healing He was promising.
Fast forward to Monday and another worship service. My teammate David came up to me and told me that God was speaking to him and saying to tell me that my eyes would be healed. He didn’t know when, but knew it would happen and said we needed to pray again. He went and got Amy and Erin again and grabbed Rachael as our team leader to pray too. The four of them began to talk to bring everyone up to speed and some crazy stuff came out. Like how at training camp a couple of people had shared that our team should pray for my eyes every day. How some girls on N squad had shared with Erin that they felt God saying my eyes would be perfect. Stuff I never knew but all came together at that moment. So my friends prayed earnestly for me. I told God how I believed and knew He would heal my eyes. I opened my eyes and still no change. This time however, I have decided to leave the glasses off and walk in obedience and the faith that I know He will heal my eyes and make them perfect.
I have now gone without glasses for three days in a row. I am not healed yet. I can’t read still, unless it is really large print except for my watch which is weird. I feel like I’m seeing better than I should be for not wearing any glasses though. Also major cool God thing is that at this point I should have a killer headache from going so long without glasses. I had to go without them for a day at home a few years ago and I had a major headache from one day let alone three. I have had absolutely no headache at all, or even the tinge of one. God is giving me the ability to wait on His timing by taking away the headaches I should have right now. If I had those headaches then I wouldn’t be able to function and might give up and put the glasses back on, but He has taken them away so that I can follow Him in faith. Then tonight sharing this story with my new teammate Jedidiah he said that it was crazy that I said that because the last few days he has felt God calling him to pray for my eyes too. We didn’t know we would be teammates until today and he knew nothing about this story until an hour ago. God is so awesome!
