This is not easy for me to do. I’m going to share with you a little about me that you may or may not already know (depending on how long I’ve known you and such). I am albino, and this can mean different things for different people. For me it means that I have light hair, eyes, and skin, the sun burns me quick and badly if I don’t wear my This is me with my bioptic driving glasses and my car in the background there. sunscreen, the glare bothers my eyes
and I am visually impaired.
and I am visually impaired.
When I was a kid this was something that I got made fun of. I had much blonder/white hair when I was younger (if you can believe that it has actually gotten darker with age.) and I held my books so close to read, unless I had the large print books which where huge so again I stuck out to other kids. I started to learn how to adapt the older I got so that I didn’t have to rely on outside help and I wouldn’t stick out so much. It got to the point that in college when I told my friends about it all they were like “Really? I never noticed.” It is true when you have a weakness in one of your senses the other gets better, I could listen and catch everything I needed even if I couldn’t see it in class. I have memorized what the fast food places have and I have a go to meal so I don’t [ have to ask for help reading the menu. I’ve gotten to where I am pretty independent and yeah sometimes I need someone to be my eyes but mostly I’ve learned how to rely on myself. This is a good thing, to have confidence in my own abilities and not to let my vision be an excuse for not doing something, but I think it has made me to dependent on what I can do.
I have always thought that as long as I try my hardest I can accomplish almost anything I set my mind to. I have realized there are some limitations I have. For the most part however I feel like I can do just about anything. The thing is I say I can do this. I don’t rely on God to do stuff. I figure out ways that I can accomplish these things. Now however I have run into a problem. Something I can’t do myself. Something I have to rely on God and other people to make happen for me. This has not been easy to admit.
Tomorrow I have to have $5,000 in my account to meet the first fund raising deadline. As of this moment in time I have $3,189.. Obviously this will not cut it. I however can do nothing to fix this problem. I work a total of 15 hours a week at a day care after school making minimum wage and I sub when I can but I haven’t had a sub job in over two weeks. So this is well beyond my ability to fix. What I need is to depend on God because He’s the one who will make the money come in. I know that God can do anything He wants and I know He wants me on this trip and He will bring in the money so that I can go. However, He needs people who are willing to give to help accomplish this goal Are you one of those people? Have you been sitting reading along with my blogs thinking about giving to a worthy cause? Do you want to help send me out as a missionary next year to be the hands and feet of Jesus to the poorest of the poor in this world? I ask that if you can give anything that you do. Monthly supports are the most helpful but even if you can’t do that a one time gift of any amount starts to add up when lots of people give. I’m not saying it wouldn’t be awesome if I hade a few people give $100 but if you can only give $10 I would be so grateful for it. If you cannot give I completely understand, but please join with me in prayer tonight and tomorrow and pray for those who can give to do so with a generous heart. God will make this happen, I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt and I’m laying it down at His feet, because it sure isn’t anything I can do. He will bring this money in and I can’t wait to share the awesome story of how it happens. I hope you can be a part of the story.
