We hear that so much growing up.
What do you want to be?
A lawyer?
A pop star?
A firefighter?
A mom/dad?
A missionary?
What?
At 20 years young, I ask myself that almost on a daily basis.
When I was younger I wanted to be the next Selena (RIP)
The next Mexican-American singing sensation!
Although I can fearlessly bust out some worship songs for Jesus, this voice is definitely a voice only God can love. haha.
So what do I want to be when I grow up?
You ready to hear this craziness?
I want to be no one.
No, not in the "I just want to leave this cruel world" sort of way.
I don't want a position.
I don't want worldly security.
I don't want to be constrained to the "career" type of lifestyle.
I'm not saying I don't want to work. I just don't want something that tries to define who I am because of the position I hold.
At the end of the day, after working my "9-5" job, I am God's daughter. That's what I want to be.
So what does that have to do with what I want to be when I grow up?
(Crazy talk: initiate!)
I feel a tug on my heart, a stirring in my soul to be a disciple.
Yes, we can/should be disciples no matter where we are and all that jazz, but I literally feel like I need to give everything up and go like Jesus told the disciples to go.
I feel a call to go and love those who haven't heard God's word or heard of His love.
Sidebar: did you know more people in this world have heard of Coke than they have heard of Jesus???
A friend asked me recently what I wanted to do.
I said I don't know. I want to just go and do as God leads.
We began to converse about vision though.
How specifically can I use my desires and gifts to serve the Kingdom of God specifically?
I wish I could say I have this awesome revelation of what that looks like.
Honestly, if I could, I would just travel and love on people in Jesus' whatever that may look like for the rest of my life.
But I feel like God is calling me to a specific ministry/mission.
Do I know what that is?
Ha. I wish.
So if you could, please pray for God to reveal that.
I honestly feel like I could just go hug everyone I see and tell them Jesus loves them and teach them about Him.
Unfortunately most people find that creepy….
I have a strong feeling that my "career" will be revealed to me during the race.
I can't wait to see what that is. 🙂
