I've started to dig deep into God's word, WAY deeper than I ever had before.
I reflect on what I read, pray and meditate on what captures my heart, and then look back on where I was just a few short years ago compared to where God has me now.
It's not in the usual "oh, yeah! That, God, was all you!" kind of thing.
I mean, yes, sometimes that's what comes to mind.
But this is more like "wow God, I wouldn't have understood that before. I've read that TONS of times and am just now getting it! WOAH! How did I miss that before God? Where is this understanding coming from God?"
And I'm not going to lie, it's pretty sick!
Like honestly, right now, I feel like God is revealing himself to me in such an intimate way that I wasn't mature enought to understand when I was 15.
Yes, I'm still young. And yes, I still have a long way to go.
But honestly, these past few weeks I've felt such a fire being burned up inside of me.
I feel the pain and uncomfortableness that is used to make me whole. I'm finally grasping an understanding that when God says that everything He does is for the good of those who love Him and are called to his purpose. I'm finally understanding what Godly wisdom is.
It's like everything my mind has known about God is coming to life in my heart and soul now.
I know I became alive in Christ when I accepted He was my savior, but it's like after all the hurt, all the pain, all the joy, all the victories, and everything in between: I, as a whole, am becoming complete in Christ.
That's scary to say outloud.
Sometimes I feel as a Christian. that I should have been there a long time ago.
I just finished the book of Acts this past weekend and now I'm on to Romans. One thing that I noticed more often than not was God takes anyone and everyone wherever they are as long as they are willing to accept His free gift, honor Him, be willing to be humbled, and to focus on your relationship with Him, not anyone elses.
So, I may or may not have "had to be in this spot when I first got saved", but God sure is stirring up my heart for Him, and the passion to serve, love, and teach His people is burning up in me like never before.
I guess what I'm saying is: let your relationship with God be your relationship with God.
He has set my heart on the world race, and I refuse to let Satan tell me I need to be in a certain place and certain time or I'm not good enough.
NEWSFLASH SATAN! I'm never going to be good enough!
But Jesus called me by name, and He's seeking me so I'm seeking back. And I'm ready to go. 
