So here I am…month 9 in beautiful Honduras. My team got a huge gift from God and we are
getting to spend the month on the island of Roatan. We are staying directly on the water where we
get to jump in every day after school and our workout. Our days consist of waking up at 6 and being
at school by 7:15 to teach some crazy children.
We get home around 3pm and then workout and typically end up swimming
for a bit until eating dinner and crashing early. Let me tell you…I have gained a whole new
respect for teachers and their ability to handle children every day. There are days when I love it and love the
kids we get to teach but then there are days when I just want to yell at these
children all day because they won’t listen. So kudos to all you teachers out
there and the patience that you have every day.
Anyways, so what this blog is really about is where I am at
currently in my relationship with God.
Lately I have been stuck in a rut.
Not wanting to read the Bible or journal or sit and spend time with
God. I can’t figure out what it is or
why it is happening. My team has given me multiple ideas on how to get out of
this rut but I still can’t seem to find motivation to try any new ideas. I
think it is finally hitting me that I have always kind of been stuck in a way
of thinking that I have to have sit down quiet times where I journal and read
my Bible and listen to God. Now, I’m not
saying that is a wrong way to have “quiet times,” but it just doesn’t seem to
be working super well for me. It is
something I have done all my life and I don’t know that I can pinpoint a time where
it really worked for me.
One thing that has been hard to do is to not compare my
relationship with God to someone else’s.
It can be easy to see others and how “spiritual” they are and also
hearing how God speaks to them. It is
something I have struggled with all race and continue to struggle with. A lot of times I don’t feel like God speaks
to me in a specific way and I don’t feel as though I have heard God speak to
me. However, I know that is a lie…but it
is a lie that is so easy to believe.
So this is my current state of mind. Living on the island by the water and seeing
God’s beautiful underwater creation has definitely helped me see God in a new
way. In that way I have been
experiencing God but I am still struggling with prayer, Bible reading, and
hearing God’s voice.
So that is that. Me trying to be completely honest. If
you have any input I would love it! If not, then prayer would be
appreciated.
Love you all!
Andrea
