Many of the moments I felt closest to God on the race were
the ones when I was completely out of my element…basically, when I had no
control and I had to look to God for guidance and provision. Coming home,
I felt like I needed to continue to put myself in uncomfortable, hard
situations so that my dependence on the Lord would continue to
strengthen.
to Africa a few months after returning home. I loved Africa, however, I
hadn’t expected to return there anytime soon. Regardless, I told God
‘yes’ early on to whatever He had for me…if that meant going back to Africa,
then let’s rock and roll!
After finally coming to grips with
squad leading and applying, I was told the leaders had already been chosen.
Okay, God…I’m a bit confused now
but I still want to go where you want me to go.
At this time, I was also thinking a lot of partnering with
AIM on staff in Georgia. In my mind,
this would have been the easy way out simply because nearly every job I’ve had
has been behind a desk. I felt I would adapt into that environment smoothly. I
felt I would be in my element yet again. I felt this would be a ‘comfortable‘
move.
Yet, this is where God wanted
me. So, I’m here.
Now
I know it’s not about being in an office, it’s not about each individual task
that needs to get done. It’s living together in community. It’s about the lives we’re touching every
single day. It’s about talking to the men and women that have tried
to do it on their own, but it didn’t work. It’s about leading a
generation into a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It’s
about bringing Kingdom into this broken world.
walking out my faith has little to
do with where I am and what I’m physically doing but everything to do with
seeking to know my Dad more by sitting in His presence. It’s not about
what I can do to serve Him in order to KNOW Him, it’s THROUGH knowing Him that
I WANT to serve Him.
Dependence on the Lord means surrendering myself,
my goals, my plans, my daily busy, hectic life, so that God
can use me to love those around me better. It means that when God
tells me to pray someone, I pray for them. When He tells me to
encourage someone, I encourage them. When He tells me to give up my
personal time so that I can be there for someone else, I do it. It
means I ask Him why He has me here, and I step out in faith and trust that
He is making a difference in someone’s life THROUGH me. It comes down to that one moment with that one person, that He is on the move through you and I.
I get to listen-love-guide-pray with-believe
in-strengthen-stretch- Christ’s sons and daughters into the world to be His
hands and feet. He brought me to here tell those searching that He has
been waiting for them.
This really isn’t about me anyway.
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and i believe it, so please pray about joining me in this mission to
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