Well guys.
I really did it.
I really traveled around the world for 11 months and made it back safely, in one piece.
Now, I am in the land of Strangely Familiar. Also known as, home.
What a relief, in some ways, to be back.
The weight of leadership that I have carried for the past year has been relieved.
What a strange, and oh so good, lightness.
My cute, pink Keds from China have been relieved from their shoely duties of being worn on my feet. (It was definitely time.)
My back will no longer suffer under the weight of my however-many-kilos backpack. NO MORE KNOTS! 🙂
It is good.
It is good to be home.
There is also a srangeness that I cannot deny or ignore.
There is a sense of disconnect and discontentment that I have been met with upon my return.
At first, I struggled with these two particular greetings.
I do not want to be disconnected. I do not want to be discontent.
It was troubling me, to battle these feelings.
However, I have come to the realization that maybe, just maybe, this is a holy disconnection and a holy discontent.
I will go so far to say that I believe the Spirit is calling me onward and forward.
This is not a negative thing, like I thought it was before.
This is good! This is exciting!
Do not get me wrong.
Home is one of the best places on earth. Believe me, I've been places.. 🙂
My family is the best.
I am continually blessed and blown away by how awesome my family is.
I am also truly blessed by my church community here in Minooka.
My friends are incredibly supportive and encouraging.
God has definitely surrounded me with so much goodness here.
But.
I cannot ignore the nudging in my heart and spirit for the next step.
It is time for me to move forward.
Now, this forward motion I speak of is something I cannot define.
The Lord's path for me has not been revealed past this moment.
So this is not a blog about what is specifically next for me.
If you want more insight into that, read my previous blog titled, "If I could have a moment of your time…".
All of that blog still is, and always will be 100% true.
Right now, I am resting in the knowledge of the sovereignty and goodness of my Heavenly Father.
His faithfulness in my life is incredible. And He has not changed.
So why should I worry?
Why should I freak out about the next thing?
…You are right. I should not. 🙂
I will be honest, there are days when doubt, fear and worry seem to bully me more than usual.
But I claim the peace of Christ!
So I will not be anxious about anything but bring my doubts before God through prayer and petition and the giving of thanks!
God is good!
He brought me home!
He loves me!
He sings over me!
I am His beloved daughter!
He has given me an incredible life!
Abundant life through His son Jesus!
I'm not gonna lie though, it is good to be home. 🙂
