A new year.
Its often an excuse for a clean slate.
A reason to make up resolutions to better yourself.
A reason to move on from past hurt.
Move on and forget.
Forget the prior year(s).
To start over new.
all those have been the reason for my resolutions since as long as I can remember.
before the new year started, I would use her and take advantage of the life that she offers.
I never would allow myself to bring the baggage from my prior years into the new year because I didn't want it to ruin what she had to offer.
I never dealt with anything. I didn't want to.
Which always brought more baggage.
2014 is different for amble reasons, some more obvious than others.
the obvious ones:
I'm living out of a backpack
I'm traveling to 11 different countries and 3 different continents.
I'm on a team of 6 other lovely God-fearing women that I will do ministry with.
I have a squad of 47 that I will be traveling with.
I'm living among the peoples of each country to learn their culture as well as love them in the way Christ does.
And I'm going to share stories about Jesus to peoples who have never heard His name before.
(I could go on, but for your sake, I'll stop there.)
But then there's this…
I'm going to live in raw, real community with these 47 people.
The secrets of my past will be revealed and dealt with.
All my bitterness, shame, hurt, and pain will be revealed and dealt with.
I will learn how to forgive myself and others.
I will see death.
I will see life.
I will fail.
I will succeed.
I will cry.
My heart will ache.
I will be angry.
I will be sad.
I will see women enslaved in prostitution and fight for their lives.
I will see many walk away.
I will see many lives saved.
I will find passions.
I will minister with the Holy Spirit.
I will see miracles.
I will love on the sick.
The poor.
The needy.
The ignored.
I will love, even when I don't want to.
I will learn how to live in healthy community.
I will see some of the darkest things.
I will figure myself out.
My point of view will change.
I will become even more confident in who the Lord says I am.
I will come alive.
So, heres my new resolution:
This is the year I will love harder, dream bigger, embrace each given day, live recklessly for the Kingdom, walk obediently, and freely give because I have freely received.
I'm welcoming the life that 2014 will bring and taking every part of me into this new year.
I won't hide my baggage, I won't move on to forget, instead I will let it come to the surface and free it from myself.
Because a free person brings Freedom.
I won't try different things to better myself and distract me from the reality of my past instead I'll lean into the One that desires to better us for His glory.
I won't forget the prior years because every experience, trial, and opportunity has led me to here. and for that, I am thankful.
This is the year that could change the course of my life.
This is the year I will find complete contentment in the Lord alone.
This is the year I will find freedom in my life as well as see freedom in the lives of others.
This is the year that I will come Alive
This is the year that I have been waiting for my whole life.
Here's to Freedom, thank you for that 2014.
What about you? What do you expect from 2014?
A big hug and thank you to those who have financially supported me to get me to this point, you've made my dreams come true :).
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10 days until launch. what? like… what? Keep my squad and I in your prayers as we say some hard goodbyes and finalize our preparation. We need all the prayers we can get!
