Hello. My name is Andi… and I am a planner.
I know that it comes as somewhat of a shock to you, my loyal readers, but there you have it. I plan things. I make lists and I check them off. Sometimes they’re color-coded. I like order and I like knowing the ins and outs of what may or may not come, and I like knowing, specifically, how to get from point A to point B. I like knowing it so much that I most usually prefer to map directions out old-school with an actual map as opposed to google or gps. Although, this may be somewhat related to the fact that my phone’s gps is never, ever accurate. Anyway.
I am a planner.
One of my very favorite things to do at the beginning of each year is to open a brand-spanking new calendar and fill in all the appointments, meetings, events, and trips I have for the whole year. I love it. I get out special pens, I doodle a bit, and I highlight. It’s fabulous.
I’ve had this routine since early on in my middle school years. Once school and sports and karate started picking up, I had to organize my life very, very efficiently in order to get to everything I wanted and needed to. This continued all throughout high school and college and the after-years until I can’t imagine my life and my time not planned out.
I am a planner.
Do you know who else is a planner? God. Do you know when His plans are most effective, are most easily set into motion? When we give up the selfishness of our own agenda. Do you know when the Kingdom is brought to earth and hearts are mended and lives are restored? When our plans and desires mean less than His.
A dear friend gave me this sweet little calendar for Christmas. When I got home from Project Searchlight I was super pumped to open the calendar and fill it out- as usual. Let’s see where this year is going to take us! But when I sat down and opened it, I found myself flipping through page after page with nothing to write.
What is this?! Where are all my plans? My events? The stuff I’m going to do?!?
This is the first year in my pre-teen/adolescent/adult life that I have not had one single thing to write down in a planner.
That is crazy!
But then I began to wonder what can God do with all that time, all that space? What does He have to fill up my pages? Where will He send me? Who will I meet? What does He have for me to do? This is the first time, ever, that I don’t have my own plans. I wonder what incredible things God will be bringing to my door now that He has ultimate and free reign.
God is a planner.
And it’s going to be an incredible year.
fill me up
