I caught myself being halfway…
Thinking halfway about going to The Race even though I was allready signed up. There was an element in my mind that chose to stay neutral with a "just in case" involved. This "just in case" was plan "b" but the root of it saying "Just in Case I do not go" this mindset was creating a comfort and security a cushion from the reality of the decision of going and it caused me to be STAGNANT for months.
A few weeks ago I thank God that he opened my eyes to see just how wrong this mentality was. How it was here to rob me from going at all. I was not All In, only halfway in and being halfway in takes you nowhere. I know now God desires me to make this committment with all my heart and mind. But I question myself why is it so hard to fully committ to the Lord but so easy to committ to other things, our jobs, education, family, we go all out for these things but hold back when it comes to God. If I truly have faith, which is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen, then I will no longer walk and talk in doubt or in halfway words when people ask me about my plans. I will be upfront and believe with all my mind the reality of where Im about to go in the next year and a half of my life. If this is going to happen God expects no less of me than to approach it with the same faith or greater than I approach other plans in my life. I never questioned wether I would graduate high school or wether I would finish college or whether I would land a great career job afterwards. These things were just set in my mind, I knew that they would happen, so why should I question the plans that God puts in my life.
There's definitely been a shift of mentality and I will walk and talk the way God wants me to, with faith, confidence and vision about where Im going. I also notice that when i go in this manner PEOPLE RESPOND! Why are simple things so hard to see sometimes. But if you don't truly believe in what you are doing and what you are standing for then how can you expect that anyone else will.
I pulled a yard sale together in a week and I thank God it was so successful. Just being out there wasn't about getting the funds but I was making my stand, more to myself than for others. God is amazing and good, He never fails to come to the rescue when we need him the most, even when we dont ask him to be there he still is.
