The World Race is super tough! We just finished month six, in Lithuania where while we had successful moments, it was far from easy. I lost sight of what I was doing here. I was becoming more and more weak. I didn’t feel like myself, I didn’t understand my teammates nor myself. I found myself in the shoes of David, crying out “Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” Psalm? ?43?:?5?). I disliked how confused, weak, frustrated and sad I felt, but even so I couldn’t find the energy to dig in. One day I remember Him telling me “One day at a time, just look to me today, we will get through this together.” His word says “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” ?Matthew? ?6?:?34? ). So I closed my eyes, and took a told of his hand. Each day when my soul was weary and had no more to give, I looked to him. He gave me rest (“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” Matthew? ?11?:?28?) and He gave me strength (“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9)
Today I rejoice because I feel like myself again, I have energy, I have ambition and passion. All the things I haven’t felt in the past couple months. Like Paul, “I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong” ?2 Corinthians? ?12?:?10 ) by the grace of God and another trail in my life , I comprehend on another level that my confidence comes from the Lord and furthermore that Without Him I am nothing.
