Goodbye London. You were good to us all…but it is time to leave you now.
Oddly enough, I am not sad to leave. I thought coming here it would be hard to leave but now I could not be more ready to get on the plane and leave this land of comfort. Don’t get me wrong, it has not been all bad but it is not for me right now. I feel like everything that God taught me in Asia and brought to life in me I have lost. I know that is a lie from Satan…which I am still battling at this moment. I know it is in me. God brought me to life in Asia and it will come back to me.
This is where God’s gift to me comes in. I have had some itchy bumps since Cambodia (that is not the gift part) and was unable to have them properly treated here in England. I have now been to 2 hospitals in Thailand and 1 here in London and the bumps stil remain. They won’t draw blood here to do the proper testing bc of the socialized healthcare and if they did it would cost me well, more than my team lives off of in 1 month. So no thanks England, I will wait till Africa. This is where the gift part comes in. I will be staying with my squad leader for a week in Nelspruit, South Africa to go to a doctor. I will then be traveling down to meet my team in Mulane, Mozambique for the next week. I know I still have alot of personal reflection, debrief, grief journeling, etc to take care of about Thailand. That country wrecked me more than I ever expected and I have not fully dealt with it. This month I did not want to deal with it so I unintentionally opted out of all emotions. As God always does, He knew what I would need. He knew that I would need this time to rest in Him and hear His voice loudly again. He knew that I would need to fall crazy in love with Him again before I could minister in Africa. He knew I would need this in order to find what I have lost. I will find myself in this time in South Africa. Thank you for this gift Father.
I have no idea what internet accessability will look like for my time in Africa, so be prepared for the worse. I will update as much as possible because I can’t wait to share all the ridiculous God stories with you. I know there will be some brillant miracles! It will be grand.
A quick shout out to all my supporters. I have felt your prayers and love since being on the race. I could not do this without you. My prayer is that God is wrecking you as you go on this journey with me. We are not done yet and God still has an unimaginable amount of things that He is wanting to teach us. Please allow God to wreck you. It hurts like nothing else, but once we have tasted this goodness and stepped into His holy place, nothing else measures up. I have seen His Glory and I will not live without it ever again.
