“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths staright.” Proverbs 3:5-6
These past two days, this verse has been beating louder and louder in my heart I can’t help but ask, why? To be completely honest, this past week was a little rough in the whole trust area-especially with finances. Lately, I have been at a stand still when it comes to recieving financial support for The World Race. Doubts upon doubts and worry began to weigh heavily on my mind last week. My friend helped me realize that I am a results oriented person. I need to know and see that all the money is there. Then and only then will I be sure, but where is the faith and trust in that? On top of support raising, this week my hours for work were cut back a lot causing me to fret about meeting ends meat. The thoughts, the questions, the lies, the attacks were fierce. I mean I know ultimitely that God will ALWAYS take care of me, but I just could not fight the fight last week. My demeanor showed it.
“My child, trust in ME with ALL your HEART…” God would whisper. “Lean not on YOUR OWN understanding. You have been trying to do this on your own. It’s time to truely TRUST ME. Oh you of little faith, have I not always taken care of you? What makes you think now , when you need me the most, that I will fail you? Come, take my hand.”
Tonight at my mission leadership meeting the same issue arose amongst the team. “How will we raise enough money for all of us to go to Haiti? I will step down because money is an issue for us” The arrows were launched and the doubting had begun.
This is something that we all struggle with from time to time: TRUST, FAITH. God has and will always provide for those who trust Him. Why then is it so hard for us to trust him when faced with these challenges? “How will I pay my school loans? How will I put food on the table? How will I raise enough money? How will I provide for my kids? The questioning continues…how? how?how? Satan does not want us to trust. He wants us to question, to worry, to doubt God. BUT, God is bigger than the battle-the “how will I“. We simply have to trust in HIM and stop trying to do it on our own. HE WILL ALWAYS PROVIDE.
For all my mission team knows, maybe there is that check in the mail. Perhaps, a friend invites your family over for dinner. Maybe, even maybe some stranger will hear your story and want to support you on YOUR mission trip. Who knows when God is in control, anything is possible! I think it is time for me to Proverbs 3:5-6 it in EVERY area of my life.; not just finances. What about you? Are you ready to relinquish that control and begin to truely trust in HIM?
