Breaking up has never been an easy thing to do.
In my experience with break ups what follows is first, heartache and then, always healing and growth.
Yes there is always the initial hurt and wondering what you could have done more or differently.
But, in the end I’ve always learned an important lesson about relationships and living life with people.
Saying goodbye is not quite the same experience as a break up, but I have felt many of the same feelings.
Especially, saying the many goodbyes that came with leaving the Philippines.
Especially, saying the many goodbyes that came with leaving the Philippines.
I had to say goodbye to Jude, Paolo and the other boys at the Children’s Garden. The CG invited us all to have dinner with them and to enjoy a last night of games and conversation. We got to pray for each other and share letters we had written for one another. Saying goodbye to Jude broke my heart. There were lots of tears that night. I truly do love that boy.
We also found out who our new squad leaders would be. This meant that our teams also changed. My team of Love. Purpose. Power. no longer exists. We were all put on new and different teams. Saying goodbye to my old teammates also involved tears and a bit of heart break. But, I have been able to see my former teammates with their new teams and I’ve already seen that this team change as brought positive changes and personal freedom to each of them.
Saying goodbye to the rest of M squad was also hard to do. M squad is full of energy and entertainment as well as wisdom and truth. Spending the month with the whole squad together in the Philippines surrounded me with people who love Jesus and are whole heartedly pursuing everything He has for them. This was great to be a part of, but made it even harder to say goodbye.
Saying goodbye to the country, the community and the lovely people at Kid’s International Ministries just added a few more heart breaking moments to leaving.
In the goodbyes/breakups/leaving there is always something to learn and to look forward to.
Saying goodbye to Jude I learned that I can truly love someone I can’t even communicate with.
Saying goodbye to my team showed me that even though I might want to fight to keep things the same, change can be so good.
Saying goodbye to the squad reminded me not to take for granted the people in my life and to enjoy and learn in every moment.
I’m looking forward to taking these lessons with me around the world.
I will love you even when you have no idea what I’m saying,
I will love you even when you have no idea what I’m saying,
I will stop fighting against change and
I will live in the moment and enjoy and learn as much as possible.
