Where to begin?
We are rounding the end in Abidjan, Cote d’Ivoire with only one more week left doing ministry! That is crazy how quickly it came and how much the Lord showed up!
The past month has been intense in so many different areas in my life that this blog is not long enough.
In my last blog, I talked about how much I missed home and how I was having a hard time, but the Lord said “Amy this is your week”. God’s timing sure does look different than mine. All week long, I was searching for where the Lord was going to use me .Every time I searched, I kept falling more and more into a doubting mindset when I couldn’t find where my place was.
I doubted why I was on the Race.
I doubted why I was on this team.
I doubted I had any gift in ministry.
I doubted that the Lord is going to do something amazing in me for His glory.
I doubted the that the Spirit would show up.
I was Debby the Doubter all throughout the day in my head.
I only saw the negative and critiques in the day instead of the joys in each moment. That helps no one.
I tried to let the Lord be the coach of this season I was in, but I was getting frustrated that I kept feeling like I was striking out. It wasn’t until I got to sit down and spend uninterrupted time with the Lord that everything changed. (I do this everyday, but that time was different).
I talked to a few people back home and one of my friends said something that was a total game changer. She said, “God doesn’t call us to be fruitful. How can I be FAITHFUL in ministry?”‘. There is the home run hit. I have been searching for ways to see fruit and have gotten frustrated that I don’t physically see it, but the Lord has been saying, “No Amy, just be faithful. It is that simple.”
Okay, okay God I will keep it simple. Since I gave up searching for the fruit and live in the faithfulness, everything has changed. Ever since that comment was said, I started reading over the past two weeks in my journal. Let me tell you there is a ton that the Lord has been doing in the past two weeks that I had been completely overlooking.
Flipping through my journal, I saw that it has truly become at place where me and the Lord has amazing and hard conversations. It is the first time where I have felt like it is a two way communication that was being written down. I looked at the prayers from day one and the growth I have had two weeks ago is a miracle in itself. It made me think that the prayers that I had at the beginning of the month were completely answered, but I just wasn’t opened to see them.
There were simple joys and ways the Holy Spirit showed up that I had been totally missing throughout the whole month. No wonder why I have had a hard month, I was searching for this miracle that was going to be very extravagant. The miracle was in front of my face every day.
Everyday that we get to encounter the people here in Cote d’Ivoire is a piece of fruit or miracle.
Everyday that I get to hear the Holy Spirit speak life into me and my team is a piece of fruit or miracle.
Everyday that we get to dance in church for the Lord is a piece of fruit or miracle.
Everyday that we go to hear someone tell their story is piece of fruit or miracle.
They were all around me and The Lord has been present in every moment, I have just been completely missing it.
This month has been filled with dancing, laughing, crying, playing, but most of all learning more and more about how much the Holy Spirit is alive and active in each of us. The Spirit has spoken to me more in the past well two weeks then in the past 22 years.
All praise goes to God!! I could not have gotten out of the fruitful mindset and into a faithful one without the Lord coaching me through it!
Now, “Put me in coach, I am ready to play!”
Also, I will attach my next vlog at the end of this!
Thanks for the support, encouragement and most of all prayers! The Lord is doing miraculous things in each of us, we just have to be willing to see it in the small moments of the day!
Love yall!
