It has officially been over a week since team Wildfire and team Wimby have arrived in Jeffery’s Bay, South Africa and I can truly say it has been an amazing week. Our host family we are staying with, Lindon and Anthea, are some of the nicest people and have truly made us feel part of their household. We have all connected so well as teams and have had what I would say is a pretty successful week in ministry. My team and I worked at a beautiful horse farm that is ran by a strong, determined woman, Hillmary. She runs the camp almost entirely by herself, but has so much passion for it and you can see that passion when she is there doing what she loves. All in all it has been amazing first week.
While getting settled in Jeffery’s Bay and seeing how life was going to be this next month I started realizing how hard of a time I was having with hearing from God. I fell into the game of comparison that I so easily fall into and was wondering how in the world that it seemed like God was speaking to all of my other team members so easily, but to me that His voice was completely silent in my mind. Praying out loud has been hard and even trying to read scripture has become hard, simply because I just can’t seem to grasp hold onto what God is trying to tell me.
I really began to think about all of this and was wondering what in the world was I doing on an 11 month mission trip if I, the “so called” Christian couldn’t even hear God’s voice. I tried waking up early one morning to just sit with God and try to read some scripture, but still I just heard nothing. Lost as to what I was even supposed to do I just came to God and prayed that He would allow His words to speak a little louder to me and to reveal to me if I was even truly pursuing my relationship with Him.
Chantai, one of the girls on team Wimby, had something to share with my team tonight before we had our team time, so she came and shared something pretty powerful. She had been praying earlier this morning for my team and had wrote words that she felt God give to her about each one of us individually. Her word for me was most definitely conformation from God and totally rocked my world. She wrote down genuine for me, but the way she explained it is what totally made me know 100% God had given her what to say to me.
Briefly, Chantai told me that “the softest whisper can move mountains” and that even though I may not hear God’s voice in the most exuberant, loudest way He is still whispering to me so softly that I may hardly even hear it. Without even having shared with Chantai my struggle of not feeling as if I can hear from God, she totally confirmed what I had been praying for.
Chantai allowed me to see that even though I don’t have the loudest voice and even though I may not hear from God as loudly as others do, I still have the power to do amazing works of God through the softest of tones. God allows each of us to hear, see, and feel things completely different than those surrounding us, but that doesn’t stop us from doing the things He has set forth for us to do. It doesn’t matter if I have the quietest voice in the room, because at the end of the day it truly is God who gives me the power to speak up and it is the softest whisper that can move mountains.
