This time last year I was feeling excitement and expectancy from God, because He called me to The World Race. Fast forward a year later and this calling is becoming a reality, except now that excitement and expectancy I had has kind of disappeared. I’ve known launch is right around the corner, as in the day after tomorrow, but I haven’t really felt what I imagined I’d be feeling at this point in time. It’s not that I am just lacking excitement, but it’s that I am not really feeling any emotions towards what I am about to go and do.
In this case though, what do you do?
I can’t just completely shut down and pretend it’s not real, because in one day I will be in the car headed to launch. The only thing I can possibly think of doing is just press in to what God is trying to do through this. Maybe this feeling of not having emotion towards this trip is just something that will come with time. I have no idea what I will feel come Sunday, but I am just praying its something more than what I am feeling now.
Also, I think the thought of not feeling anything has to do with the fact that in these next 11 months I am still just living life. It may look different than my everyday life back here in America, but at the end of the day it is still life. I will be investing in relationships with a new group of people I will call family these next 11 months. God will still be stretching me in new ways to grow in my relationship with Him. I will be sharing love to those around the world who God has already lined up to fall in my path these next 11 months. It is the life that God has called me to and whether I am feeling excitement or not, I am still going to strive to do what He has called me to the best of my ability.
When it comes down to it though I do believe I have some type of emotion, but it’s the emotion of being in the unknown. Normally I have some awareness of what the trip I would be taking is going to look like, but with The World Race I don’t even know what to even expect. At this point in time though I don’t think I would want any expectations, because I truly believe I would miss out on what God is about to show me in these next 11 months.
While I may feel no emotion other than not knowing what to expect in these next 11 months, I know God is still working in my heart and reminding me that in these next 11 months I am not doing this alone. He is reminding me that He carefully chose the team I am on and put us all together to do amazing things for His kingdom. He is working on shaping me into the person I always believed I could never be and through this trip I fully believe He is going to transform me in ways I could never imagine.
I can’t believe it is already World Race launch weekend! Thank you so much to my supporters, friends, and family that have got me this far in this process. I couldn’t have done it without you all! Right now I am sitting at being 80% funded and have $3,000 left to raise. If you feel led to support me any amount would help! Thanks again.
