I tend to reference my "bucket list" a lot.
I don't really know why because I've never actually made a bucket list. I've always wanted to make one- a real, hand written, maybe even laminated, hard copy of to-do's before I kick the bucket. Mostly, though, I just pretend to have one in an effort to seem cooler, more adventurous, or just because it sounds better to have a bucket list than "life goals" or something else boring sounding.
If I really did have a bucket list, however, this week would have scored me something to cross off. It's as if the stars aligned and everything came full circle on this last fateful Sunday that I got to meet Beth Moore at Passion City Church in Atlanta.
I'm sure most people haven't even heard of her, but her studies, books, messages, and story have impacted my life more than Justin Beiber's impacted pop culture(happy belated 18th by the way) This particular goal on my list may seem lame, but compared to other entries, like popping popcorn on the other side of the "this side up" warnings, this one is really up there.
I'm kicking myself for not having her sign my copy of her latest book, So Long Insecurity, and I'm rehearsing everything I should've said to her, but overall it was a bucket-list-worthy experience.
Maybe it's because I've been reading that book, or maybe it's something moore…bada bing, couldn't resist…. but insecurity has been coming up in my life more times than the Call Me Maybe song on the radio. I'm officially convinced that most of our issues stem from the root of insecurity.
Can't tell you the number of times I've heard the same thing lately- that so and so is insecure about such and such. Until we believe that we have been assigned dignity and value by the Creator of heaven and earth, then we're screwed (Beth would put it more tastefully) Also can't tell you the number of times that I've had to use this as my mantra lately, "I'm clothed with strength and dignity, I can laugh at the days to come." -proverbs 31:25
I guess I've determined to become a secure woman, which should make my ultimate bucket list. I really do have more hope to trust God, stop fearing, and get on with it, no matter the insecurity, the self-doubt, and the lies.
I think it's going to be a daily thing, just like most battles, but I feel a sense of urgency to fight this one for some reason. Maybe it's because I know how much insecurity has robbed me already. Either way, nothing is more impressive than when someone is secure in the unique way God made them. It's so worth the fight.
So here's to maybe making real bucket lists, to believing that you're secure because the Lord is your security, to choosing to fight for your God given dignity, and to sitting next to Beth Moore on an airplane( I'm convinced that'll be my next star alignment)
