In Cambodia we're changing teams up… I'm not a team leader anymore- it's been a good 3 month run- but new people are getting the chance to step up and it's really cool. I'm definitely excited to see what's in store.
I think I thought I was good at change- good at being a beachball and going with the flow on pretty much everything… but I didn't realize how much this change would affect me. I was/am still way freaked about the teams being switched, just because God really blessed my first team with a unity that was not from us. It was so cool to see how we really had a heart for eachother, but it wasn't from anything we did because we were 7 completely different strangers with no shot at one-ness…. God really changed our hearts to be unified enough for each other and for our ministries.
Now, I have two new team members and a new team leader. I'm learning that change forces us to draw nearer to God and cling to the only One who doesn't change because it's so frickin scary- I hate that I hate it so much, but it's kind of a hurts so good thing because I know it's for the best and I'm so ready to transform and be transformed. Being uncomfortable, again, forces me to check myself, my motives, my heart- it makes me step back and ask why I came on the race in the first place.
Someone said tonight that we don't have to be here, or we don't have to deal with team changes, but we get to. We get to have a new team and we get to be in Cambodia- what a cool perspective shift that I need to focus on because how dare I ever let my own insecurities or whatever get in the way of the fact that I am so privileged to get to live for eternal things. So privileged to get to live with people who are intensely after things not of the earth, but after faith. The love,truth, and hope that comes from that pursuit is so life giving to not only me, but also the least of these who are sufferingly lonely and desperate to know that there is something more for them and that they are meaningful,valuable, and loved despite circumstances and what life has to offer.
So, after an eventful quarter of this world race-age, I'm ready for Cambodia–ready to change and be changed. Excited for my new teammates and ready to know them. Ready to learn, grow, and listen more I hope. Also ready to see one of the seven wonders of the world tomorrow(Angkor Wat)- pretty cool, I may or may not have never heard of it before, and thought it was called Ankle Wot until recently.
