I know that's a lame title but there is no other way to put it: God has been doing amazing things in my life the past couple weeks. I have experienced greater intimacy in my relationship with Him and have, through the power of the Holy Spirit, walked in more freedom than I ever imagined.
A couple weekends ago, I attended a conference with some friends that changed my life. I soon realized that my relationship with Jesus was something I tried to own, control, and possess. I had put God in a box, and while I did carry Him with me wherever I went, I was truly the one in charge; I was the greatest reality in my own life.
I have been learning recently that my relationship with Jesus is not supposed to be something I own but something that owns me. It possesses me, I don’t possess it. It is without limitations, and the message of the Jesus is something I cannot attain or even begin to understand on my own. We spend so much time trying to master the gospel, when we just need to let it master us. God the Father, God the Son, God the Spirit is the authority we sit under.
I am confident that before the conference I was filled with the Holy Spirit and had access to all that God is. But something happened that weekend that I can’t deny. And after talking with others and listening to some sermons, I think it’s safe to say that that weekend I let the Spirit have all of me.
God and His gospel of grace is no longer something I try to possess, but something I freely and joyfully swim in.
Jonathan Helser wrote a song titled “Endless Ocean” that I wanted to share. In this song, he describes the nature of God as well as His response to and relationship with us. The lyrics speak of glory, vastness, and endless being. God has used this song and the imagery in it to beautifully and accurately shape my view of who He is. I hope it encourages you to stand amazed and in love with God. Enjoy!
In the beginning you were singing
In the end you'll still be singing over me
In this moment you're right beside me
You're everywhere, you're in the air that I breathe
You are an endless ocean, a bottomless sea
In my sin you kept loving
There's no end to your forgiveness and mercy
Every morning you keep coming
The waves of your affection keep washing over me
All those angels, they are swimming
In this ocean and they still can find no shore
Day and night, night and day
They keep seeing new sides of your face
There's no end to the affection you have for me!
