Have you ever been at a point in your life where you just wish you could see what was next? Eagerness, excitement and maybe a little anxiety overcome you? I have had a handful of seasons like that. I have had moments where I beg God to give me a glimpse into the future, but I don't want that anymore.
A couple months ago when I was leaving California with little plans, money, or positivity I thought I would get by until the race. I thought I would be at home all the time working any job I could get while wishing and hoping I was back in Cali, Austin, or anything else.
Little did I know.
I don't want to know the future anymore because I am living in the present.
I think if God would have showed me what was next those months ago I might not have believed him, or I may have been sad. You see I was so blessed in Austin I didn't think California could come close, then it was. IT WAS SO GOOD. I though home would be misery.
Little did I know.
You see, I am happy. Really happy. I am living at home, which can be chaotic and crazy but it is also filled with countless perfect moments that we will cherish forever. To top it off I have a great job, where I am surrounded by really good people and get to have way too much fun. God is teaching me things everyday about him and how to do ministry when I don't "do ministry".
As happy as I am, I am not freaking out about the race, or my future. I am not getting upset that I have to leave this, or that I am not half way funded yet.
I am living in the moment. I am trying to take in nights danced away, afternoons celebrating 3 year olds, and endless laughs all with people I love.
When we spend all out time worrying about the future, and what may or may not happen we miss what's right in front of us. We miss what God is doing right now!
I am trying to take challenges, heartaches, and trials as they come, give God the glory, and soak up the insane amount of blessings that each day brings.
Thanks for coming along for the ride and supporting me in HUGE ways.
- 1,000 till my next deadline of 7,500 (December 18th)
- Training camp in 13 days!!!!!!!!!
- Please pray for my squad mates that still haven't met their first deadline.
- Love you all.
- But for real you guys are awesome.
